Final Destination

Recently I was watching this short Hong Kong drama about this couple being together for almost 8 years together and family & friends around them was anticipating for the good news of them getting married unti one day the gal felt insecure about da guy's daily expenses.

The guy works as a team leader in an insurance company and for him,physical appearance and packaging is very important.That's why he will spend loads buying 'LB' bags,expensive suits and going to higher end restaurants(eg:spending like HKD1000 for a meal?).The guy realise his girlfriend's concern so he started this HKD100 per day plan and everything was working well till he found his own favourite 'LB' bag in the second hand bags store!That bag was his precious especially it is a limited edition bag and for him,da bag was his dignity.

Therefore da girlfriend felt da guilt and she started to understand that she should accept her boyfriend interest & that's da meaning of love,learn to accept the way your partners are.Soon after that she decided to change herself by buying & wearing first line brands.She wanted her boyfriend to be happie and to be da same as him.

Everything sounds pretty well and I thought it was da finale until one day,da guy critized on da gal's favourite handbag which is old,outdated and not 'branded'.Then,da gal realise that both of them actually belongs to two different world.

Da guy wanted a status & money while da gal wanted to have a simple & stable life.It's like a road with two routes heading to a different destination.Somehow it make me to discover da uncovered destination between me & her.Are we heading to da same one?Yet to know =)

Getaway to Malacca~

Last weekend,we had a getaway from da City to Malacca a.k.a da Historial State. If I'm not mistaken da first and last round I went there was during my Form 6 time with Winter & come to think of it,it's almost like 4-5 years back,gosh! I dont recall much about Malacca as the only thing I remembered was eating Yong Tau Foo, going to a hotel for a tea time break(sounds cool uh?), rushing back to KL middle of da night cos there were no more bus ticket left!Hehe, little do I know about Malacca.

So this time we decided to go there for jalan jalan cari makan and sight seeing Malacca. I always wonder how come my chimui like Malacca so much till when she reach her retirement age, she hopes to settle down there.

Before reaching Malacca, da things tat worries me da most was da hotel. Well, self admit tat budget hotels in Malaysia always give me a creepy feeling especially stories frm my friends about da lights go on & off, da scary hallway and etc. I was lucky enough to ask my ex-colleague for recommendations as we doesnt wanna spend too much for a hotel and he introduce us Fenix Inn. Da hotel was actually a connecting three 3-storey shoplots and it was a surprisingly a decent,clean and good accommodation. For da location wise,it's pretty good as it's near to everywhere that we wanna go(Malacca aint tat big u know?)and for da money, I personally think it's worth it. What I reallie like about da hotel is everything seems new & clean. What I heard from my colleague is this hotel has been there for a while and most of da time it's fully booked! This aint a myth cos I actually called up to ask for room availability a week in advanced, da receptionist told me they oni had 2 rooms left for reservation, gasp! So we were lucky enough to stayed in here. Thumbs up!

Malacca is reallie a historical state where museums are all around you, the baba & nyonya culture is still instilled there, people are extremely good and food is super delicious. Here I took a snap of our lunch but due to da limitation of uploading pics here so I decided to upload da famous amous 'Cendol'. It's a best of a best cendorl I ever tasted in my life so far. I never reallie liked cendol in KL as it's usually covered with syrup and a lot a lot of ice,doesnt seem facinating to me but in Malacca, it's a must to try!

We were lucky to have found a old lady stall just outside da Hokkien Association at the Jonkers' Walk where they serve traditional 'Lui Chou Coffee' and da butter & kaya bread. You might be thinking what's so great about coffee and bread since we got Old Town, Uncle Lim and etc but this specialty is they use charcoal to boil da water for da coffee and using charcoal to burn da bread!(*hehe,I wonder da word 'burn' is da correct one,since we always say toast bread instead of burn bread,anyway who cares). It's very rare to find people cooking with charcoal, only older people in those days would and da first sip of da coffee and first bite of da bread brought me back to my younger days when I had breakfast with my parents.Awww~~

Anyway too lengthy about Malacca, I honestly do enjoy myself there with da people & lifestyle there and hope to go there again some time =) We had a great time venturing around.

Happie One Week Birthday Baby

Heya bloggie, today is my baby's one week old celebration!Yeah,just out of curiousity,my baby?*lol*Well it's my car,finally after years of struggling and sandwich myself in da public transport,finally I could wave bye bye to da buses and taxis but definitely not da lrt/monorail(they are still very beneficial when comes to traffic jams).

So that's da good news and da bad news is a week ago,my grandpa has passed away cos of old age and honestly speaking,I thought I would have cried on da spot when I see him but in fact I didnt.Da reason is when I first step into his house at Seri Manjung(somewhere in Perak), I saw my grandma lying down on a chair and looking at her reallie makes my heart feels sour & slowly I cried.My grandma is a patient with Alzheimer disease for quite some time and now she reaches da stage where she couldnt walk,talk nor making any hand movements.At times, we aint sure whether is she being conscious or not.It's pretty sad to see my grandparents who has been good for their entire life and walking to their life edge like this. Guess it's all about God's will?

I prayed to God to take care of my grandpa and may him bless us from above =)

Right now,I'm sitting on my new office with only the receptionist and me around.My bosses are out for business trip and another colleague of mine is filled up with appointments. Okie,let me do a little intro about my company and what I'm doing here. Currently,I'm working in a software company that carries Microsoft and SAP products hence my job is to generate new prospects and responsible for the solutions & sales as a Corporate Account Manager(my title =O).

Sounds like a big responsibility uh?Well I havent reallie get my hands on this big responsibility but I felt it coming on my first day. What reallie open my eyes here is da way they train people. Usually companies will spoon feed you and here they coach you.What's da difference?For example,they will prompt you questions to let you figure out the answer to your questions.I dont know how to explain this here but seriously their way is making you think out of your head and realise the uncovered areas.

I hope I fits in here and learning to move up in my career ladder.That's what drives us working right?Money+passion+future+motivation+being happie,without any of these,we'll just complain on and on.

Dear started her new job too few days ago and seems like things are going on well.Thumbs up!

Hmm,about us,we do have a little issue here to settle,which is da 'staying together' issue.We reallie need both understanding about this as you see,I have a family here and moving out for me at this moment is pretty hard as my parents are getting old and I'm still in my career curve. What I think is when my career & financially is stable, this is da time when I can move on to another level & staying with her but I got to understand that now for her,living with people whom she hardly know is kinda difficult. So,I'm trying my best to spilt myself & time for her & my family and of cos I feel exhausted but is there any other option?God, I need some enlightment here.

Anyway time to prepare my stuffs to go out soon,shall have more updates later =) great day everyone and take care my dear,shoo away da flu..muacks!

Da Start of Year of Rat 2008!

Happie Chinese New Year bloggie!Here comes da Year of Rat,I wish for a prosperous,happie,wealthy,healthy,lucky and a great new year for everyone around me! =) Started da first and second day of CNY at home as it's always been a practice den spend da next few days of holidays by flying to Penang & driving up to Alor Star.It's been a wonderful new year start though it seems that as years gone by,da lesser da ang pow I get = (.I do miss da good olden days,our childhood times,holidays & festive seasons was much more merrier with greater celebration and well life goes on & I enjoyed mine this year as I felt my 'presence' in her family*lol*Waiting for more ang pows to come~

With 5 days break,I got back to work and now,I aint stressing myself about work but doing da countdown of how many days to go till my last day.A lot of people are asking me my final working day cos honestly,they wanna have some farewell for me and practically they need me to settle their documents before I leave*haha*Feels good about being important suddenly and so this week is team dinner den customer dinner den boss+company dinner=all lou sang dinner then next week is farewell lunch here & there (>_<) Seems like a lot of eating!Gonna cont my diet plan again and I'm happie I'm leaving HP~~oops.

Yesterday got a call from da bank asking about my car loan and I felt anxious that my first car is coming out soon!=P I even start to think & plan where to go with dear during da weekends driving de car.A short distance trip maybe?With wind breezing on us & sunny sun above us,how does that sounds?*Thumbs up*Cross fingers*

Tomorrow is Valentine's day,any plans about how you gonna celebrate with your love ones?Well,yeah everyday can be a Valentine day but da truth is we doesnt practice it so why not express your love on this day & make it a special one*wink*To all loving couples out there,enjoy ya!*muacks*

*Happie Valentine Dear~Everlasting Love from Bei Bei*

Bleeding Love

Heard of this song 'Bleeding Love' by Leona Lewis?This is reallie a superb nice song that you'll never feel bored listening to over and over again.Dont ask me who's she ok?Just got to know this song from my ngoi yan,thanks babe!

This song suits how I feel right now.Reason is coincidently if you were me,you found out that your partner is still having some fling with her/his ex,how would you feel and react?For me,I was totally pissed off but fortunately I didnt show any of these in front of her.I still pretend to be da usual me,doing da normal house chores,packing my stuffs and planning da today's itinenary.

You may say I'm a easily jealous person or conservative or narrow-minded,you name it but looking at da messages they type to each other in front of me,I nearly burst into tears man but I hold back.Yeah,it's suppose to be normal for ex-s to have feelings for each other but isnt tat suppose to be da pass and my goodness sake,da message is just like weeks ago?And it goes like this "Can you just come in and let me hug a while?", "All I want is a just a hug" and "My cute little tweety bird?".

Dear God,I know I may not have beena very good girl but I dont think I could accept such friendship?So I'm kinda wrap here and dont wanna prejudice on anyone.I feel not good and unhappie so I just wanna leave da place and leave da relationship,maybe,since it's not that 'clean and pure' as I thought,why should I remain and being foolishly stupidly play?

And you,yeah da dear I have always been mentioning about here,dont explain to me anything,I trust my eyes rather then my ears & no lame excuse for this ya.What I wanna stress here is I had enough!

Go on with your fling and I'll have my own life,will I reallie find my true love?

Feeling Disconnected =(

Have you ever felt disconnected with da people and things around you?
Lately when I thought things were going on well as I'm getting a new job and car,a big change in my life.A while I felt disconnected with her.It's like something seems to be bothering us.Easily we just get mad about each other & then we start throwing over da tantrums.She pointed out da situation & it just lead to da problem is ME.It seems like I'm not listening to what she say,not following da way she wants,I'm easily throwing my anger on her,i'm always 'challenging' her words,I aint priortizing her and last but not da least,I have changed ever since I work,I aint no da last time me.

I wont deny what she says is true or not cos I'm sure certain parts she is right about me but as there gets more often lately.I just find myself in my own world living in my life.I feel so lost.Where am I now?Who am I?

God,are you here with me?I just need ya support..

Again & again she seem to have lost memory about da 21st on each calendar month.It's kinda upset where I mark da date with every smiley but most of da time it end it de other way.Da best way to comfort myself is 'is just another ordinary day',dont take it so hard den da lesser I feel.

Second Resolution of 2008

Last Thursday attended one of my company grand dinner.Last year we held it at Mandarin Oriental and this time it was in Shang-ri La,Kuala Lumpur.At first was thinking to grab my old dresses and just putting on some light make up & hairdo but since my gal colleagues proposed to have a makeup+hairdo package which sums up to RM100 only(cheap as in KL rate),so let's do it!

I'm always happie for company dinner cos we get to work half day officially den time to rush over to da saloon to get ourselves done.Surprisingly,I thought I look normal but from the reaction when people look at me,I knew I looked very different.Imagine even my colleagues couldnt recognize me when they first saw me!(Okie,dont know whether it's a good or a bad sign,however I take da good one of cos8haha*).Took a lot of pictures on da day since it's a different Sam so here's one that I took it myself*cheers!*Dont doubt,it's me =P

I guess this would be my last company dinner with HP.I went for my first interview of da year on Saturday and unexpectedly the managing director offered me da job package on da spot.He was like 'wait-no-more' and then I showed my interest & told him that I'll confirm da next week.After some thoughts,I decided to hand in my resignation letter & as a norm,my boss and colleagues were 'shock'.I knew that this decision was a BIG one.I felt undecided whether to leave my comfy zone(flexible environment,great colleagues & boss but with a dead salary & position) or to start with a fresh zone(totally diff environment,idealess about my new colleagues & boss but with a good package & position).So after all da mind battles,I decided to change & have a fresh start*Crossing my fingers*

My dear got her first interview on last Friday,it started well(though she was so anxious days before da interview and it went on smoothly.Oh yeah by da way,it was reallie a 'memorable' moment to shop for her first working clothes*haha*She didnt wanted to look too girly so we went for a stripe shirt with black pants and we had lots of hassle buying da shoes.No heels,no pumps and must be a wrap shoes but finally thanks to Bata,we found da right one.Da lady partner of da legal firm hired her on da day itself!Good pay as we compare to others and since it's her first job,good try =)

Well,it seems like I got my first resolution done!Bravo and congrats to both of us.

Now up coming next is my second resolution of da year: Getting a new car!

My new job do requires me to travel around so having a car is neccessary & finally.So am I getting a Honda City?Answer is nope.Disappointed?Well a little yes but after da realistic mind speaks and da financial calculation done,I was confirmed I wasnt ready to get my dream car yet.However,I think it's ok for me to start with a economical car and if I work perfectly fine for my new job,Honda City is still on track,so why bothers?I should be feeling lucky that I could afford a car all by myself.It's all efforts of my day*wink*

Next update would be my dear's first working day and Chinese New Year on day way*tung tung chiang*