Loving You

Dear dear..I feel so happie today and I seriously dont know why, probably weeks before I felt that things wasn't that smooth for us, it seems like there were some things between us that make us miscommunication some how and I felt that you were gone in da sense that your feelings for me was gone, though physically you were around me but I felt ur attention and feelings was hanging up in da air, I didnt know what to do but to tell myself that everything is gonna be alright, it's just another bad times that we need to went through and finally da day has come, after da "nite" of telling you how I feel, I felt great and now I realise how silly I was to keep everything to myself and thought that I could just forget about it, I learned my lesson to be bold and daring and open to talk to you, I mean you're my girlfriend so why should I be afraid of talking to you?When I felt that there are things that I shouldnt be telling you cos I doesnt wanna upset you but in da end da one being da most upset one is me and it influence you and da whole relationship, so right now I promise not to be silly anymore, I should talk and ask what I want to and it isnt neccessary for us to talk 24 hours cos actions do speak louder than words, being in ur arms today, I felt I'm back to you and we're in love!!Dear I miss you so much here..

Love and Be Love

"Love and be love" is a phrase where I learned it from a movie where I watched it with my chimui, da movie enlighten me about love where each of us here are looking for someone who is da missing piece of our puzzle, I aint looking for someone who is perfect cos I feel that being with you, you have make out da perfectness of me, I aint looking for someone who can give da world to me cos I wanna share da world with you, when comes to da topic of love, I believe that everyone has their own definition and dictionary about every word, actions and situation so when problems occur, da best is confront it with ur partner and not asking or listening to what others say, you may not realise that you do take each word of what others say about you, I'm not saying that we shouldnt open up our ears and listen to others but I feel we should know what to take and digest, I know you hear people saying or in way critizing da way you treat me, and these days I got kinda worried and afraid of this cos I doesnt hope that my love becomes a pressure to you, I dun need people telling you how much I love you, I dun need them to say you're treating me good or bad, It's for us to know how much we love each other, I doesnt want you to change da way you treat me just because of what others say, dear I love da way you are and I strongly agree that everyone has their good and bad and most importantly is we accept ourselves as who we are and compromise, when you're down I'll be there to cheer you up, when I'm crying, you're there to hand me da tissue and hugging me, when I have my bad days, you'll make me smile, when you got your temper on, i'll just be quiet sitting around you, isn't this something that we have been doing for each other?It's been 8th months together and I never doubt da way you treat me, at times I know I'll be over sensitive and over pampered and you'll neglected my feelings which it's normal for anyone right?I wont be expecting you to be a perfect 101% lover cos I'm not either, please dun bother so much about what people say, ask yourself whether do ya love me?do ya enjoy this 8th months of relationship?I cried da whole night with my shattered heart when you couldnt answer me whether you love me or not..My tears naturally flow tis morning when I think about it, I realised how deep I love you and how much it hurts when da one you love say this to you..If we have problems, god bless give us da strength to go through this, if we need communication, den we'll need to talk over it, I dun wanna avoid or ignore anything and just forget it, problems occur den a solution is needed, sorrie I cant take it of losing you..I hope that u'll accept my love naturally as who i am not because of others..I love you so much that I always think about da future we gonna have..what about you?

Vacation

Seriously do look forward for a trip right now cos my job gonna start next week, hope to enjoy to da fullest of my holidays before i start off kicking my time with my work =( Been wondering lately how's da job gonna be?how am I gonna get into da job?Will be able to make it?How much could I save from it?I honestly hope to fulfill my dreams by getting my first imported car( cos I doesnt reallie prefer local cars), da clothes that I want, da hp I hope to have for both of us, da money for us to get us to trips around da world and also to save for my future dreamhouse..haha I guess I'm daydreaming, just started to work and wanna think so much d?Em just wanna have so goals to aim in my life, I seen people working for their entire life without possessing any things in their life and I, myself wouldnt want tat to happen in my life, U may say I seem to be a materialistic person where I do admit I am yet I'm a greedy one, I wish to be successful with my dear,family and friends around me where tis would be my best happiness of all..

Graduation & Work

Finally after 3 years in university struggling with studies stress and sleepless nights..I'm graduating d!!Frankly was kinda freak out waiting for my results to release till da day da letter of confirmation from university came and written completion of studies with Bachelor in Computer Science(2nd Class Upper Honours)..phew i was reallie happie cos imagine my elder siblings both of them having First Class Honours, I doesnt want mine to differ very much from them, anyway thanks god for giving me ur strength and my dear as well..i still rem da night you were here helping me with my final year project!Sleepless night right?Anyway *applause* for our effort and great I'll be starting my work next month d..though aint a IT position job yet I'm satisfy with da pay and also da brand name of da company n wanna give it a try in sales..who knows maybe I fit in there right?Let's wish us da best of luck and dear I know u're looking for a job now and I hope u'll be able to find one with new exposure and experience..god bless us ya*Amen*

Being Sensitive?

Isn't natural for women to be sensitive about their love ones?I aint sure though but I know if I dun control myself I can be a over-sensitive creature, I do have questions that wonders in my mind but I chose not to ask you cos I doesnt wanna upset any of us, I guess u should know what I might be asking you*blink*well I told myself to trust you but da prob is I dun trust her..I know she still loves you and she do cares a lot about you and as ur gf,i'm practically jealous cos of one main reason where I wouldnt mention here*blek!*and dear I do appreciate and happie for you about both of ur friendship..I know she's a great fren to be and I'm reallie glad that after all, she still remains as ur goodie friend =) Just wanna tell you that if I ever throw my temper and being mad about her, I reallie hope you'll understand how I feel, I wouldnt feel tis much if I didnt love you or if I'm abnormal!haha anyway I put my trust in you more den 100% cos it's you whom i love!!!

Stubborn Sam!

I do admit I'm stubborn at times where I'm so self-centered that I just wanna listen to myself and thinking I'm right and as always convincing people to agree with me, what's da problem with me?Bringing up in a average family where financial has always been an issue in my family, we were taught that we need to spend wisely when we are out, we can buy things with our own money, that's why whenever we have holidays, we'll need to go out and work, in my family there's no policy such as "stay at home-enjoy holidays", looking at my elder siblings, I'm reallie proud of them for achieving who they are and what they have today, I'm hoping to be like them as well, not to defend for myself, I do feel that this is a part of reason for my stubborness where I'm afraid to lose, I'm afraid to show others da weak side of me, I would rather close da door & cry to myself rather den letting ppl to know, and of cos I'm always pushing ppl to listen to me and get their agreement which is totally a bit prob!I'll need to get use to myself about sitting down n listen to people without any interruption!(Agree with me dear?)haha not forcing an agreement here ya..well I'll change if I need to, I doesnt wanna spoil my life nor my love, I know she has been pampering me and forgiving me for all da mistakes I did and hope that we could sit down and have a heart to heart talk about each other to have much much better understanding, I have chose to settle down with you, that's y I'm willing to go this far with you, let our hearts goes together along in this long long journey..

World Cup 2002

Da world cup fever is now everywhere out there and everyone is bz looking at da matches,placing their bets and screaming for their favourite teams while I'm writing this now..Thinking back of four years ago,world cup was our first conversation topic in irc dear, i remembered clearly it was an afternoon and we actually chatted everything about da world cup.."So you think who's gonna win today?" "Let's bet with lollipop!" Haha those were da days my dear, that's how I knew we actually met in da Girls Power Party but there was many people there where i barely remember who was who and luckily you remembered me..I'm pretty sure you do remember da "misunderstanding incident" that happens between us that got us apart and we remain as friends..and it was kinda out of a sudden we got close back together and slowly having back da feelings for each other and falling for each other till now..i'm sorry that during da times you need me so badly to be there for you I wasn't there and I know it's late to say it right now, don't worry I promise in da coming days and future, I wouldnt leave you alone cos who am I if you're not with me?I love da way you hug me in you arms where I could listen to ur heartbeat, it makes me feel like I'm a part of you, how I wish I could be in ur arms everynight when we go to bed, just like da times when we are away for trips!I miss you so much my dear!Hope our love would blossom like flowers does and flows as far as da sea does..I Love You!