Daring Moment..

Sorrie bloggie,I said I was suppose to post up this yesterday but I forgotten, sorrie ya so now I shall continue to write okie?*Phew*Finally da time has come where I have da courage to tell her it's for her to take her time to figure out about us, whether does she love me,does she wanna continue this relationship and is she being comfy with me, if da answer for all this questions is Yes den she shall look for me, I'm just sitting here and waiting for da finalize answer.

Probably da next question you'll pop me is for how long?As I told her to take her time so I guess duration of time doesnt matter at all, I have da time and patience to wait as long she knows who, what she wants and most importantly she's happie.Maybe some of you might be wondering what am I doing?

Oh yeah before I missed this, how come suddenly I'm so daring to do this?Simple cos she say she was frustrated. I doesnt wish to see her being upset/pressured/tension/frustrated being with me. I want her to feel and enjoy da moment of love bringing us happiness and everything we want to.Since I feel that da problem happened like 2 months ago, it's a time for her to settledown and regain her conciousness.Come on let's admit we have communication problem cos of our different attitude, we like to assume this and that about each other cos we never wanna ask, I'm afraid you doesnt like me to ask a lot and you doesnt wanna ask cos you think it's not necessary or doesnt wanna raise any issue. It's not our attitude problem, we need some adjustement and compromise about communication. We aint open to each other about this cos afraid of upsetting each other?Anyway, this is how I feel my dear.

Seriously I'm trying to save this relationship, if wasnt easy for us to go through da ups and down to reach the road here. In the relationship, we laughed,cried,hugged,nervous,scared, embarassed and etc TOGETHER. For me, this is just another test of love/life, I asked for a talk cos I wanna approach her for a solution and as knowing her for quite some time, I know she might be avoiding not to talk as she might feel that I'll talk a lot and win at da end. Just for your information, in a relationship/love/life, winning over your partner each time would results of losing her in da end, so do you think this is what i want?

She asked me yesterday how do I describe about myself?Well I gave my truthfully answer about da good and bad I think about myself.What's da reason she asked?I doesnt know and I didnt ask, I'm sure there's a good purpose behind gua =)

For now, I guess I need to free and let go of her, let her go as far as she wants, fly as high as she could, get as much air as possible. All this while I'm afraid of losing, so I hold her to me as tight as possible as near as I could and now I realise that you doesnt need to be possesive to love a person cos love comes naturally to you. Though it might be late to discover all this, anyhow late is better den never. I'm getting smarter already!!!*yeah right*blek*

Dear God,I thank you for everything that you have given to me in my life, no matter good or bad, there's a reason for everything or anything to happened,right now all I'm asking for is your guidance and support for me n jas, I guess we are a little bit lost in no where, lead us to our happiness where love and future is there with us, besides love, in our career n studies, bring us luck and good in health(especially for her!), bless our friends around us and may them be happie everyday.I confess my sins to you and hope to be forgiven, please do forgive jas,my family and fren's sins as well.Thank you God for everything and may you bless us in everyhing we do everyday.In the name of Jesus*Amen*

I aint Christian k?Just that I do believe da existance of God*keke*anyway time to start work already, you gals out there take care of yourself and for jas,if you're reading this, you doesnt need me to tell you who I am, you should know who I am to you.

I'll end with few lines of my little expressive moment..

In my heart,
We never be apart,
Cos you're the one who make me realise,
What's love and how our future gonna be.

If God were to give us another chance,
To mend the broken heart of yours,
I would promise that you'll have me forever with you.

I miss those kisses and huggies we had,
Needing you so badly around me,
How I wish you would say you love me,
And dear I love you so much..