Friday Morning~!

Yohooo..it's friday morning!!Love fridays a lot a lot cos it means weekends are on their way already & I could sleep more den 6 hours, I could get lazy on my bed whole day and listening to mp3 songs, seriously I just love being in my room, doing nothing, just lay down,close my eyes and listen to my mp3 songs, rather den stuck outside on da road with da jam or get crowded shopping with people out there(I love shopping and not you bump into me,I bump into you la..arghh)

Yeah my salary is out d*oops*should I mention it here?Well please ignore what I say okie?Hehe..well before this, I have planned to get my first salary and da first thing to do is to have a good dinner with my dear hubby and shop shop all I can.Reality, it doesnt happened now, so I went out with chin yesterday to grab pasar malam den we had it in mid valley with andrea den we continue our shopping session.Yes, it seems like I was having a mega shopping time and my heart wasnt there with me, every piece of cloth I wore doesnt seem to be pretty, doesnt fit and okie let's face it, da reason is because my feelings wasnt there. Last time shopping was reallie great cos I enjoyed it so much with her around, her opinions are really appreciated by me, she say it's nice,immediately pay & buy, she say nopes den definitely da clothing is out of my list..*sigh*Dont I miss those days?

Yesterday she msg and say she reallie dont understand me and said she didnt like talking to me, was shocked over what she say cos I kept wondering till today, what have I done wrong?Why did she gave me such response?If I'm wrong, let me know la my mistake, suddenly kena prosecuted with no warning*innocentnya*anyway probably she got her valid reasons, I wouldnt ask much, wait for her to explain if she wants to..

Every morning is another brand new day for me, I'm kinda use to waking up in da morning messaging her, I felt my life wasnt me alone, I felt love and care, I felt that everyday I have a love one(that's her la,summore who right?) with me, I talked to chin yesterday and said that last time I could feel our hearts together, whatever we do, I could feel that passion from both of us. Now, I feel so many misunderstands happening around, am I running out of luck?*Oh God*so I decided to visit temple this weekend, wanna pray pray..

Can we have a talk?I felt that you have been thinking too much till you're frustrated or lost?You doesnt know what to do and you cant assume what I'm thinking/feeling/talking too, isnt talking to each other, blast everything out is better?Not asking for an arguement, I'm asking for a better move/approach from both of us to think and figure out what we want.

I know I have been trying to save this relationship, doing everything that I can, how about you?What are you thinking?What are you avoiding?Why are you isolating yourself there?How have you been?When you wanna come out of your hidden shelter and talk?Who you want to live tis life with?Am I bothering or interrupting you?What am I doing now?How should I be?Am I doing da right thing?Are we suppose to forgive and forget?Did we do anything wrong?How much we understand each other?Are we willing to compromise?Where's da love?I wanna know..

I care, I reallie care..I care every single thing about you and now it's not da right time for me to do so cos I'm afraid of pressuring you, that's why I try to stay far from you, after any incident from last time till now, please do not be surprised that I still love you very much, I never change or decrease about my love for you, it sounds so desperate and dont ask me why I love you so much k?You should know it..ask your heart..have I ever left you alone?I may seem cold to you these days, it doesnt mean I dont love ya, is just that I'm kinda afraid, my feeling for you are so strong till that I takut later I throw everything to you and you're sufficated!*gasp*haha..

How I wish to see da happie happie jas who's happie with sam sam..sam sam love jas..jas love sam sam and happily ever after =)