*-Love-*

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Keith Urban: Tonight I Wanna Cry
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Alone in this house again tonight,
I got the TV on, the sound turned down and a bottle of wine,
There's pictures of you and I on the walls around me,
The way that it was and could have been surrounds me,
I'll never get over you walkin' away..

(Chorus:)
I've never been the kind to ever let my feelings show,
And I thought that bein' strong meant never losin' your self-control,
But I'm just drunk enough to let got of my pain,
To hell with my pride, let it fall like rain,
From my eyes,
Tonight I wanna cry..

Would it help if I turned a sad song on,
"All By Myself" would sure hit me hard now that you're gone,
Or maybe unfold some old yellow lost love letters,
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better,
But I'll never get over you by hidin' this way..

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Message of Da Day
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Wohoo thanks chin for recommending this song, though yeah it's reallie sad enuff to listen to da song yet it doesnt mean sad songs are meant for sad situations or for sad people. Da lyrics are very meaningful to think about ourselves before making da same mistake & losing da one we love.

It's never late to tell ur love one how you feel, no matter good or bad, it's always wise to share with them anything if u want to, dun hold urself back about ur feelings,fears,worries,laughter,tears & jst tell them wat u want. Da one you love would stand by ur side and listen to u by giving da support that you need. Never think that showing ya weakness is da same as losing ur pride cos if you do, you gonna lose her as well.

Doesnt know what my dear been thinking lately, she felt that our thinking has changed that cause a gap or a difference between us. Anyhow, mayb i'm too stuck with da word love, where I'm still wondering whether does she still love me?till I dont sense da change?Em I doesnt know, for me, everything is simple, I love her so I accept everything about her(mayb she feels that I dont cos she emphasize that I say I'll understand her yet in da end it does bother me about it again) & I'm willing to accept any changes.

I do understand humans change as da world rotates and in a relationship, feelings changes as well. It depends on how much we wanna compromise and cope with da changes?For me yes, if there's a change den talk it out and let both parties know what's happening. I always prefers talking while she prefers to use actions/"feel it" but our main prob is whenever there is a issue/problem raise between us, we didnt confront it face to face worrying that we would upset or hurt each other(isnt tat sweet?keke).Probably I did hurt her(I think) that when I say I understand or I will try to understand BUT I didnt. I'm too self-centered where I just listen to myself. Guess I didnt open my heart & mind to listen to her, how she reallie feel inside, den things started to change where she start to hide herself away frm me, slowly dislike talking to me, didnt know how to approach me and soon feelings start to change as well.

Again,watever I mentioned above is how I feel & think, reality I doesnt know how she feels till she gonna sit down heart to heart & face to face telling me(I'm reallie praying for this day). I doesnt reallie care right now how much pain & hurt & how many times I cry already cos it doesnt matter anymore as she doesnt care. I seriously need her to be happie cos I mayb selfish as I doesnt listen to her BUT i aint selfish to see her happie. Seeing her happie & smile is da best part of my life. I doesnt wanna be your burden dear, I wish I could be your happie go lucky lou por with you as long as I could.

It may be late to say so much cos I know once someone get hurts, some may heal & some may not & some would heal with a scar inside. I'm trying to be strong to confront this by myself and preparing for a day where she would want me to leave.She has been part of my life & future, that's why it hurts so much when she avoid & ignore & left me unwanted alone, I felt da whole world fall hard on me.

If it's my mistake causing this misery, I'm sorry to you dear & it's up to u now whether you wanna give this relationship another chance. I have said what I need to, sad & tears has been drowning myself too much till I doesnt know who am I, feelings for her still going strong cos I love & care about her so much that I doesnt want to see her sad. I reallie dont want.

Hope she would be able to make up her mind,think twice about us and if she feel it's time to let go den what could I say?I would wish her happiness in everything she does & stay by her side.I doesnt need to emphasize about my feelings for her cos I wouldnt wanna stress her about it, probably she would think I'm troublesome & only know da word "love".Imagine when I message her a love msg, her reply was "love again?".I knew that my messages wouldnt sound da same to her d, I knew she wouldnt wanna feel da love I'm giving d. It's sad,yes it is & I'm still praying for some miracle to happen.

Dear, feel my love sincerely to you, it's a simple love that wants happiness from you.Love may not be a big word or carry a meaning to you and yet it's how i describe about you. When I count my blessings, I count twice when I think of you,you're an angel send above for me.Wish you could open up your heart & let me know what you think of me.This is something I reallie want to know no matter good or bad.