Confused??
Have you ever been into a dilemma situation whether you doesnt know you wanna love or hate someone?Well I did.After da whole incident, I'm starting to think whether how do I feel for this person?Someone who broke my heart,who betray my trust and who wants to be my friend.How would you take it?
It may sound lame to you that I still couldnt accept da fact about it till today.Why am I still drowning myself with it?Today had lunch with my ah kor(bro) where she told me that it's not da time to figure who's right or wrong or asking for da explaination why she did it.What has happened cannot be changed.Since she make da choice of doing it,she got to responsible for it.Probably she felt lonely,she need someone 24 hours by her side and I was not able to do it so she betrayed me?
I have no idea how true is this and I was making my effort to move out so that we could see each other more often.Da main reason I wanted to move out was for her.I knew that I couldnt bare myself seeing my girlfriend sleeping in da same room and same bed with another gal(especially da bitch?).I knew she's da type who needed her love one to be by her side cos of her fears and I was trying my best to do it.Maybe sometimes da phrase 'Late is better den never' is not always true.
What can I do now?I dont know.Just continue finding who I am and struggling with da pain that I had?I know I'm still very weak and hurt inside.I still haven't found da way where I could just release everything out.Believe it or not,I can still cry for her till today?Impressed?I'm impressed too.I thought my heart has died for this heartless person BUT nopes,my heart is still occupied by her and I still love her.
Okie okie..I know you gals might wanna smack me and say wake up!It's hard to find someone you love and who love you too.I found da one I love and I thought I was so lucky to find such a perfect hubby for myself.Was planning and dreaming how beautiful would it be in every picture of my future,there's she with me.Now,eheem da pictures?Seriously,I know I reallie do love this person a lot.Many times she asked me why do I love her so much?What attracts me to her?In da name of LOVE,I love you and that's my answer to you dear.If you love a person,there's no reason cos everything of hers would seem perfect and good to you,even her bad and weakness cos you appreciate her and you want her so much =)
I am trying my best to heal da pain and it's gonna take a long long long super LONG time for it.Guess time is da best medicine right?Thanks for any support from you and my frens.I would have been dead on da floor already.She's gonna go bangkok today and I wish her a safe journey there & enjoying herself there.
Would stay by her side,giving her whatever I can and reminding myself that I aint da one she wants now.Will keep telling myself about my limitations*cross fingers*Good luck Sam =P
It may sound lame to you that I still couldnt accept da fact about it till today.Why am I still drowning myself with it?Today had lunch with my ah kor(bro) where she told me that it's not da time to figure who's right or wrong or asking for da explaination why she did it.What has happened cannot be changed.Since she make da choice of doing it,she got to responsible for it.Probably she felt lonely,she need someone 24 hours by her side and I was not able to do it so she betrayed me?
I have no idea how true is this and I was making my effort to move out so that we could see each other more often.Da main reason I wanted to move out was for her.I knew that I couldnt bare myself seeing my girlfriend sleeping in da same room and same bed with another gal(especially da bitch?).I knew she's da type who needed her love one to be by her side cos of her fears and I was trying my best to do it.Maybe sometimes da phrase 'Late is better den never' is not always true.
What can I do now?I dont know.Just continue finding who I am and struggling with da pain that I had?I know I'm still very weak and hurt inside.I still haven't found da way where I could just release everything out.Believe it or not,I can still cry for her till today?Impressed?I'm impressed too.I thought my heart has died for this heartless person BUT nopes,my heart is still occupied by her and I still love her.
Okie okie..I know you gals might wanna smack me and say wake up!It's hard to find someone you love and who love you too.I found da one I love and I thought I was so lucky to find such a perfect hubby for myself.Was planning and dreaming how beautiful would it be in every picture of my future,there's she with me.Now,eheem da pictures?Seriously,I know I reallie do love this person a lot.Many times she asked me why do I love her so much?What attracts me to her?In da name of LOVE,I love you and that's my answer to you dear.If you love a person,there's no reason cos everything of hers would seem perfect and good to you,even her bad and weakness cos you appreciate her and you want her so much =)
I am trying my best to heal da pain and it's gonna take a long long long super LONG time for it.Guess time is da best medicine right?Thanks for any support from you and my frens.I would have been dead on da floor already.She's gonna go bangkok today and I wish her a safe journey there & enjoying herself there.
Would stay by her side,giving her whatever I can and reminding myself that I aint da one she wants now.Will keep telling myself about my limitations*cross fingers*Good luck Sam =P
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