Great Weekend Together

It has been some time that we didnt spend weekends together,where it just da two of us.I reallie enjoy my time laughing,teasing each other in your class,my first time using my card,going to da MATTA fair,got over da wrong train(*shy*),influencing her to get other brand laptop(oh yes!),trying the lucky book in Borders(hope it comes true for me!!)and dessert time.Her smile,her touch and the look in her eyes reallie captivate my heart yet I told myself to hold back tis time.I knew I was too tired and helpless to continue my feelings.It's not that I dont love her but yet da hurt da pain still remains there.Reallie wanna huggie you tat nite but I'm afraid to do so.

I know no matter how time flies I still need to move on and forget what I needed to.Maybe I aint strong enough to tell myself,let it be.Probably because I'm too stubborn about love.When we were together, I told myself no matter how difficult da road is gonna be, I'll never let go till she say so. I was willing to be by her side no matter sunny or rainy days with da hope that she's happie always.Da whole world was behind me questioning me how much can I trust her?Yet I stood for her and our love by saying that I love you and this is the best reason for me to trust you.I understand that trust is da foundation of love.Without trust, love doesnt last at all.Ever since da day you told me that you love me and you wanna spend your future with me.I swear to God that I will not have doubts about you and den I gave you da key to open da doors of my heart which I have never done so.

What's so special about you?I doesnt know da answer.What I can say is it's amazing how you open up myself,da magical spell you have that let me fall so deep in love,I never think so far ahead about my future till I see it in you,my first time that I myself understand what is love*grins*.Ever tried waking in da morning where you wish that da one you love is just beside you?Dreaming of making meals for her,both washing da dishes,clothes and clean da house together?Walking into da dream house that both of you wanted?Talking about what both of you wanna achieve?Having da crazy times laughing at each other?Hugging on da bed watching each other asleep?*Emm that's reallie sweet,isnt it?*

I told her that right now I doesnt wan any relationship nor a guy or a guy in my life.I have put a no entry sign.I believe you know who is da one who can dismiss da sign away right? =) be happie everyone