Lost

Listening to da sad sad heart broken songs now, I didnt know what can I write here today. Yesterday night she told me she feel down when she hears me laugh cos she doesnt know whether am I reallie laughing or am I hiding?I guess people who are reallie reallie close and understand me well will know am I hiding or not.

I feel stressful here with da hurt and yes I know you're feeling da guilt too.Dont ask me to find someone else and convincing me about true love or better future.I reallie doesnt have da heart to do so.I lost my heart,my smile,my trust,my confidence and everything including YOU.How far can I move on,I doesnt even know?

I'm glad to know that you felt sorrie for hurting me and foolishly it was something I have been waiting to listen "Sorry" but yet forgiven or not it's another story.Your sorry couldnt recover da pain I'm having and it could not erase my nightmare either.There are people asking me whether is there any chance for us to be back together?Answer:I doesnt know..

When we were together, I put myself into da relationship so much that I forgotten about myself entirely.You were all in my mind,my heart and future.Everything I did,I prioritize you and that's why it's so heart breaking when I discover what you did behind me.I gave you my trust and I put confidence in us.I was making da whole world to believe in us yet in da end you broken this trust of mine.

Love consist of trust and now I have given up on myself about love.Last time,I naively believe in true love,forever love and beautiful love but right now I have many doubts about love.I doesnt believe in myself anymore cos I'm hurt and afraid.I'm sorrie if you reading this.

Weeks before I have da courage that I wanted to disappear in your life and yet I felt it wouldnt make any difference.Walking away from your life or my life will only remind us this pain and hurt so it's not necessary for you to do so.Just do watever you can to be happie and remember what I always said to you before "I just want to see you happie".