Nightmare..

Da incident has become a phobia or a nightmare to me.I couldnt sleep.Each time closing my eyes asking myself not to think so much for a better sleep,I couldnt.Da images of da incident keep repeating in my mind and da pain was getting deeper and deeper and soon tears came falling over and over again.

I still cry for someone who hurt me so much,someone whom I doesnt know whether why I still have da love for her though I hate her for what she have done.How foolish am I?

My life now is miserable,I live in hell,feeling so terrible..I feel so helpless about myself = (

God where are you?I need you so much to tell me how do I continue living in this world where they are all LIARS!Behind an angelic face can be a devil behind.Who can I trust now?I doesnt have confidence in myself.She ruin myself.I'm lost in da middle of no where.Where are you God?