Expressive
Why is it so hard for me to explain how I feel to da one I love?Isn't suppose to be easier to talk to da one whom you gave your heart and trust to?Yet I still have problems with it.I realised my weaknesses where I would stand tall and strong in front of her where I doesn’t wanna let her see me upset,downs and stress.Whenever she asked "Are you okie?" spontaneously I will answered "Yeaps!" eventhough at times da actual fact is I'm not.I doesn’t want her to get worry about me.I want her to share da happiness with me and let me go through da unhappie myself.This is because I love her and I "sayang" her a lot.I wanna walk into her life showering her love and happiness while bringing us together closer to our future.
However,this isnt good for a relationship.If I'm single,I live in my own world,yes I can swallow everything down without burdening or upsetting anyone and if I have a girlfriend den da situation is suppose to change!Why fight or argue so hard with her?Why making things seems so confusing?Why make da relationship so difficult for both of us when all I need to do is just be tender about how I feel?I blame it on myself for such attitude,it's not that I wanna win over you dear,I didn’t want to but it's just so hard for me to express how down I am,how pain I am and da negative sides of me.You have seen da cheerful and positive sides of me but never I would try to let you see da crying baby and negatives sides of me.I know that being together is about sharing each other inner sides where we don’t show to others.I have tried telling you when I was down,I tried..I reallie did yet it didn’t change how you think about me.You still would remark that why I like to keep things to myself.I keep cos I wanna avoid burdening you listen to my sadness,seeing me crying and feeling my pain.Do you know that?
Sigh,I need to see a doctor for expressing emotions theraphy*lol*Anyway,she's been kinda confused lately that nearly got me confused too about us.I agree on let things settle naturally by themselves yet some things need to talk out.If she have anything on mind about me,I would be glad to hear it.I used to be a bad listener and now I'm changing to be a good one(*slaps*always talk too much rather den listening).I aint asking for anything right now as we could maintain who we are now.I don’t dare to ask anything either cos you doesn’t owe me but please stop asking me to find others or saying that I deserve someone better.In my heart and mind,there's just you(aint pressuring anything okie?).Those words aint helping me at all,probably it might make me feel more sad only.
From what has happened till today,I didn’t ask for a explaination,I didn’t ask why,I didn’t ask you to apologize and I didn’t seek anything from you cos what has happened has happened.You may feel da guilt while understanding da pain and hurt I gone through yet I didn’t know why I forgive you.I was happie and glad da day when you said "Sorry" cos at tat moment,that was what I wanted to listen.Mayb because of da word "Sorry" and for da sake of "Love",I forgive you.I couldn’t hate you nor blame you for it.I just didn’t know what to do.
I like being around you cos of da care and attention you gave me.I could just leave all my burdens and problems deep down in da sea while flying to cloud nine with you.I felt simple being with you.Yeah,that da word "Simple".I could just love you and being love by you.Your touches,huggies and kisses are so warm that it just melts my heart.When I needed your support,you would just give da pat behind my back and your actions tells me your encouragement.Though you aint a expressive person but your actions tells how you think.
I may talk a lot till at times I doesn’t know what am I talking about yet please accept me as a simple person who loves being in love and happie.I trust God,fate,luck and love.I may have doubts trusting others in da whole world but yet I doesn’t havent doubts in trusting you.We do have communication problems where we aint open enough to tell how we feel about each other cos we are afraid of da consequences and don’t let this break us.If we know this is da problem den face it gal.I aint gonna eat u up if you tell me I aint pretty okie?*haha*
Learning not to be so stubborn about myself already,learning from others about myself where I can understand better about me =) good luck. Commitment and da word "Attached" doesnt reallie matters as long you know how da person feels for you.Slow and steady will build da foundation so be easy about us ya.
However,this isnt good for a relationship.If I'm single,I live in my own world,yes I can swallow everything down without burdening or upsetting anyone and if I have a girlfriend den da situation is suppose to change!Why fight or argue so hard with her?Why making things seems so confusing?Why make da relationship so difficult for both of us when all I need to do is just be tender about how I feel?I blame it on myself for such attitude,it's not that I wanna win over you dear,I didn’t want to but it's just so hard for me to express how down I am,how pain I am and da negative sides of me.You have seen da cheerful and positive sides of me but never I would try to let you see da crying baby and negatives sides of me.I know that being together is about sharing each other inner sides where we don’t show to others.I have tried telling you when I was down,I tried..I reallie did yet it didn’t change how you think about me.You still would remark that why I like to keep things to myself.I keep cos I wanna avoid burdening you listen to my sadness,seeing me crying and feeling my pain.Do you know that?
Sigh,I need to see a doctor for expressing emotions theraphy*lol*Anyway,she's been kinda confused lately that nearly got me confused too about us.I agree on let things settle naturally by themselves yet some things need to talk out.If she have anything on mind about me,I would be glad to hear it.I used to be a bad listener and now I'm changing to be a good one(*slaps*always talk too much rather den listening).I aint asking for anything right now as we could maintain who we are now.I don’t dare to ask anything either cos you doesn’t owe me but please stop asking me to find others or saying that I deserve someone better.In my heart and mind,there's just you(aint pressuring anything okie?).Those words aint helping me at all,probably it might make me feel more sad only.
From what has happened till today,I didn’t ask for a explaination,I didn’t ask why,I didn’t ask you to apologize and I didn’t seek anything from you cos what has happened has happened.You may feel da guilt while understanding da pain and hurt I gone through yet I didn’t know why I forgive you.I was happie and glad da day when you said "Sorry" cos at tat moment,that was what I wanted to listen.Mayb because of da word "Sorry" and for da sake of "Love",I forgive you.I couldn’t hate you nor blame you for it.I just didn’t know what to do.
I like being around you cos of da care and attention you gave me.I could just leave all my burdens and problems deep down in da sea while flying to cloud nine with you.I felt simple being with you.Yeah,that da word "Simple".I could just love you and being love by you.Your touches,huggies and kisses are so warm that it just melts my heart.When I needed your support,you would just give da pat behind my back and your actions tells me your encouragement.Though you aint a expressive person but your actions tells how you think.
I may talk a lot till at times I doesn’t know what am I talking about yet please accept me as a simple person who loves being in love and happie.I trust God,fate,luck and love.I may have doubts trusting others in da whole world but yet I doesn’t havent doubts in trusting you.We do have communication problems where we aint open enough to tell how we feel about each other cos we are afraid of da consequences and don’t let this break us.If we know this is da problem den face it gal.I aint gonna eat u up if you tell me I aint pretty okie?*haha*
Learning not to be so stubborn about myself already,learning from others about myself where I can understand better about me =) good luck. Commitment and da word "Attached" doesnt reallie matters as long you know how da person feels for you.Slow and steady will build da foundation so be easy about us ya.
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