Rain Rain Rain~~

It's raining like dogs and cats outside so I'm stuck here in da office though it's already after work,well what to do I doesnt own a car and doesnt wanna get myself squeeze into a tin of sardine while taking da bus.Shall stay here for a while,surfing da net and checking other people blogs to see their updates*keke*

Well,it's monday blues and glad it's over.Most of my colleagues are taking off from tomorrow till Raya finishes and my leave application is still left on my manager's table unsigned.Dont see him here today though,probably away for business.Hopefully he will be back as I'm longing for this holiday man.During da Merdeka month,took leave but end up at home.This time by hook by crook,I wanna get out of KL.

I guess da main reason why de other day I brokedown was after all has happened to me,I havent reallie release myself you know.It's like there's still something in me making me sufficating.Why?I thought that threwing and acting like a insane person at her place has make me over it and now I understand that at tat moment,what I did was da anger I had in me and now da suffication is da pain that has been eating me.

Dont get me wrong,I never blame her on what has happened,just tat I still need some time to heal myself.Aint easy to forget and let go okie?Something funny happened was a fren of mine told me today that she felt weird and couldnt get comfy seeing me and her together now.She couldnt believe how could I just take things so easily and still hang around with her.I told her there's no reason to hate someone da whole life.At times I would be confused to be a good person or a bad one.Cos when you're good,people tend to take it granted and forgotten to appreciate it and when you're bad,people would remember da good ones of you and would cherish you more.This is life or humans are just like that?A question without an answer.

Why are they people crazy about love?People who wants to have a girlfriend or a boyfriend so much?These are da questions she raised to me yesterday from her friend's friend situation where she desperately wants a boyfriend.Em,I feel that no matter how powerful you are,how rich you,how pretty & famous you are and how successful you are,one day you'll just realise da word "Lonely".It's true that we doesnt live for others and we do not depend on others to live yet what we need is support and companionship.I told you before that love last for few years in a relationship and da rest is companionship.We are looking for someone whom we love and someone we can count on too.This particular someone is da one whom we can fully trust without any doubts,we want him/her to give us their support,we like their care,touch,words and love.Your friend may have everything she wants or she's still on da way catching her dreams and she needed someone to share with her.Alright this is my point of view so it does sounds very da emotional okie?*lol*

Still feel bad today though about da throwing temper thingy and hopefully it does not affect her.Anyway doesnt wan her to feel that I keep remembering tis,for da last time,I'm sorrie dear,I wish you could feel how much I do appreciate what you have done for me,your words and actions are all noted down in my heart*blink*

Hey got this very sweet phrase from a friend's blog and would wanna put it here(No copyrights reserved right?Doesnt wanna get sue!)

"Sometimes I think that if I'd never fallen in love with you,
I would be a very different person because no one else could have recognized so much good in
me,
No one else could have made me feel this happy because no one else could have believed in me
and made me the person i am today,
And no one else could have filled my life each day with so much love and joy,
Thank god I'd met you,
I love you."

I'm going back home already..freaking cold in here...my fingers cant type anymore..another day has just passed =)