Throwing Temper On Her =( Sorry Dear..

Okie it's was a bad emotional yesterday night,suddenly I felt down thinking about the incident and with sad songs I was listening to,it got me worst where I started crying.Yeaps cry baby again and again*haha*Was sms-ing with my dear and she was asking me "Am I okie?","Asking me dont think of da sad stuffs"(Isn't sweet?)Den in da middle of da nite,told her I was hungry and she purposely pack some food & send it to me(Sweeter?=P).Anyway da bad thing was my emotional temper got over me,I threw my temper at her by slamming da doors and that's very shameful of ME!!After that we had a discussion about me being emotion,how should I control,what I needed when I'm having such times and also about compromise(I forgotten this word yesterday!!)

I'm so sorry,I knew I shouldnt have done so,you were having your stress as well doing your assignment and I was so inconsiderate doing all that to you while you were being sweet to me.Seriously I felt guilty till today,that's why I doesnt dare to message you today.How I wish you're reading this cos I wanna let you know it's not because I'm "yam sing".I reallie didnt know how to control my bad emotional times.Da worst thing about my bad emotional times is,it happens suddenly,with no specific reasons and it will reallie bring me down down to da drain.I would feel afraid being alone and would reallie hope you're here with me.I just needed someone(da one I want) to be next to me to accompany me.That's all.

She's woke me up that I cant expect her to be there everytime when I'm having this sort of situation.I'll need to understand her situation too.There are times when she needed me to be there as well but she understand that I cant.How come I'm so silly??*Slap slap*Told you I'm a more emotional person rather den a rational person.So need to change something about this which is using my brains more rather den my heart(at times la*lol*).Emotionally I aint independent enough I guess,would need to practice more on how to handle these.This situation has got us few times into arguements,dissatisfcation and discussions which pull us down.

I'm reallie sorry as I doesnt want things to happened this way.I was being inconsiderate!Monster!Girly!Watever you name it.I knew you care about me,trying to cheer me up and I'm reallie reallie bad =( I'm very sorry ah!I'll promise that in no matter how bad or emotional my situation is,I would not throw my temper or tantrums or do anything saddie or baddie to you!I Sam Su promise you this else I wont be pretty anymore!(*Wohooo*As you know how much I love being pretty right?).You're reallie someone important & I reallie didnt wanna do this to me.

Sorry maybe meaningless and too late to say at times yet dear I reallie mean it.Hehe I'm writing a apology blog here for you okie?Cos I reallie felt so so so so guilty about this.Again I'm SORRY!*bow bow*Anyway do bear with me also la when I have my bad times,do wish I could share it with you instead of seeing ya black face. Experince few times where I was down and you got moody,ever since den it was hard for me to tell you about my probs.I didnt want you to be moody or unhappie when I'm already down and upset here,get what I mean?I wanna share with you to release & not sharing with you to add in more stress and frustrations.Doesnt understand why each time my instints tells me you doesnt like it when I'm down.Is there a problem for me to be down?to be upset?I know I just shouldnt throw my temper at you .I dont wan to keep everything to myself already.Now I'll share everything with you and hey tell me about my good and bad,I wont murder you because of it.Need to learn from others about myself to be a better me.Ew need to do something to handle this emotional thingy..Sam oh Sam..Different people will have different ways of handling themselves and I wish we could compromise about each other,aint saying who's fault is it..Aint like last time where I wan answers & always feels there's right and wrong =)

Oh yeah another updates about my life,let's welcome da new member of my family!!My baby nephew,this little kid is so cute!Looking at him and my niece,oh my gosh I felt old already.Wondering what have I been doing for da past few years?Guess being enjoying myself naively and now is time to grow up.

Right now,my main priority is how do I wanna get closer to what I have been dreaming of.My house,my car,my savings,my travelling,my family and of cos there's still you.Friends who sees us do ask me whether how come we seems closer den before or how come we still hang around.Em guess there's no special reason as I believe things will work out naturaly da way they are.

She shall stay focus and work hard in her studies,felt a change in her after the results.She finally understand how to control herself and set some limits within herself about time management.Seriously,I'm very happie to see this.I wouldnt mind at all if I dont get to see her as she's putting her effort studying.I bet last time I would complain about her not spending time with me & blablabla..Childish isnt?*haha*What I reallie hope on her is I do wanna see her graduate,she had missed da chance of UK studying,she had failed twice and now she's learning from it by putting all da efforts that she can.

Dear God,as I believe in you & this gal is now trying hard for what she can,she building up her confidence and bringing herself back to da reality.Please help her and guide her.At times she maybe lost and blame herself as well as others for da past,lead her and show her da future that she wants.I know she can do better den this.Forgive da sins that she made and we learn to forgive and forget.I would wanna confess my sins as well for hurting people around me.I realise my mistakes & wouldnt wanna repeat them.Thanks God for everything you have given to us.In da name of Jesus*Amen*

Let's forget about da sad and bad times and life moves on..Cheer up!