1st November 2006

On 31st October 2006 night,was preparing to bake cake for my dear,this is da 2nd time I'm doing this as I promised her before that I would bake a birthday cake for her every year.After work,rushing to grab da ingredients and went over to my friend's place for da kitchen and tools,happily and anxiously making da cake.Da kitchen was like in a total mess!*Haha*Flour,sugar,eggs and butter seem to be covering here and there and my hands was nothing but oily.Anyway,I do enjoy this session.I doesnt know about others cos as for me,I enjoy cooking,baking,buying or just anything for my dear.Though this year da cake didnt turn out to be da butter cake that I wanted it to be(*Sigh*It became sponge cake =\ big big disappointment).Glad that you're still willing to see and to eat da cake.Though it's a priceless birthday gift,hopefully you could feel da love & effort I bake with it =)

Been thinking and planning for weeks about how to celebrate birthday with her and yes I think I'm a bit too obsessed where other people doesnt go around surveying with others about special birthday celebration and yes I DO!Love giving surprises,seeing da shock on da face and da best is da smile(Cos I love surprises too!).Unfortunately,poor little dear started getting sick few days ago and on her birthday itself,she was reallie down with fever and tummy wind problem.Sick on da birthday is reallie something bad.After getting some rest in da noon and a visit to da doc,I'm grateful she felt better and recovering.I always feel bad when she's sick and yet she still need to drive to see da doc while I feel uselessly sitting next to her when she's da patient.Em got to train up my driving skills as I doesnt wanna be useless anymore!=P*Blek!!*Luckily we still managed to have dinner and a movie together as a celebration,though simple,I felt "lucky" that we could spend this day together.

Frankly,I never though that she could celebrate her birthday with me,after all who am I right?And I thought that I'll just drop a birthday wish message,that's all.So that's why I put da word "lucky" there.However,it doesnt mean that she spend this day with me cos I'm a V.V.I.P k?Wish you enjoy da time being spend together.

Happie Birthday Dear,another year older shall reminds you that ups and downs happening for da past one year.Hope you're happie about da ups and learn to be stronger from da downs.I wish you a happie happie birthday with full of smileys on ur face,money on your way,luck behind your back,chance in your hands,love in ur heart,health by ur side,success in you and anything that is best for you shall come to you.May all your dreams come true and for those dreams hat hasnt come true,just give some time for da angels above to fulfill them okie?God shall lead you da path to make sure you doesnt get lost.Dont be afraid to do what you want,just put in your courage and go ahead,just do it.Happiely I got to celebrate this day together with you & for I do wish that we could celebrate this day together for da years to come =)

Da last question you asked me yesterday was "Is it worth for me giving in so much?",this morning I woke up with a pop up question on my head,which is "What do I want?".So finally I replied your message with a question "Do you want this then?".Probably it would be a unanswered question and I don't mind.Now,I'm starting to smile cos why it she asking that question and hey it sounded like I want her more den she does,isn't?I aint sure da reasons for what I'm doing and I swear that what I'm doing and saying is cross from heart.Wouldnt know how she feels about me and I wouldnt even ask.When it's da time,she shall tell me how she feels.

It's obvious that da ex still loves her and who knows there might be still unfinished love between them?This is for them to know.I was reallie bothered by this kind of friend-ex-love relationship between them last time but I keep quiet where I trusted her that it's a plain friend relationship.After da incident,I didnt wanna bother anymore cos it's not under my control.Hey hey just saying what part of my heart feels.Aint creating any confusions here.I respect whatever decisions or choices she made cos everyone do have da rights to do what they like.

At da end of day,we just want someone whom we love each other by our side giving us trust and support.Someone who stays and support you through da good and bad times.Someone who wanna spend lifetime and dreams with you.Love is just a term,practically da word US is being exercise.