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Been sick throughout da day,took MC to stay back home for a rest,wanted her to care and seeking attention from her,unfortunately I dont.She didnt even give me a call to hear nor to ask how am I.I was da one checking out on her,wondering how's she,her assignment and her moodiness.Sam oh Sam,is it neccessary for you to do all these?What do you want in return?

Seriously I doesnt know,I just wanted her to gimme a little care.Probably she's stressed up with her studies and as usual she would have forgotten me.Times likes this would pull me down,making me feel like I'm nothing to her.Just wanted someone to care when I'm sick.Guess it's right not to have expectations cos da more you have da more disappointment you'll encounter.Another new lesson shall learn from today.

Learning to hang on to myself no matter how much I needed her cos I know this is not what she wants now.Would put a little distance between me n her and will hold back my feelings as I'm reallie afraid it's coming back again.

I used to compromise where I felt I compromise too much.I used to give in where I have give in everything I could.I used to say watever I want to where I guess I speak too much.I have done almost everything that I have promised you,with no lies,I reallie did da best I could for you.It's time for me to sit back and see,to reallie understand what are da things that I see in you,what have you gave me and how do you feel about me.All this while,it seems to be one sided,where it comes from me.Reality?I doesnt know cos you never say and never show.Your actions and words seems to be differ.Da truth?I believe you're da only person knowing da answer..

Gonna get back to work tomorrow,lots of things gonna follow up before my new colleague is going off..Hope she handle her assignment well =)