Happie 17th Month Anniversary-"Gift?"
Argghhh..A stupidly misinterpretation happens yesterday between us and I was so mad & hurt till I said da word "Break up".Surprised why did I say so?It all happened when once upon a time..
Today is our 17th month anniversary and as usual,I would ask whether could we be meeting up tonight for dinner,at first she say ok but let her check her class timetable den when she have checked it's 10am-5.30pm,she say she cant,can we meet up on other days.I was upset and disappointed,thinking that it's another time we cant celebrate this day again.I know it's impossible to celebrate every anniversaries together but I do hope once or twice we can ma or let's just not say da word 'celebration',how about just meeting up for lunch/dinner or watever?It also depends on time and our availability as well =) Honestly,I told her my upset and probably she was very tired and stress with her revision,she was pretty mad about it and then came da phrase "You want me to fail again?" and I interpret as "I failed you?"
I was very mad at tat moment seeing that phrase cos I felt that I gave her da support she needed.I was really sad at that moment,thinking she blame her failure on me,cried non stop & thinking how could she be so cruel to me.Then we gone through da sms conversation to realise at de end that,all she meant was another thing and I say break up bcos I tot she blamed me!*Ish Ish*Pretty stupid right?
I know after this,she may still feel da hurt n thinking how could I simply just say break up over such small issues.What I wanna you to understand is I doesn’t mind if you comment or critize me on my own attitude,behaviour and others but I definitely can't take it when it's something I feel I did da best for you.I do hear and accept all da things you said to me.It would be reallie sad if someone doesn’t appreciate da good things you have tried to do.That's why da words came out from me,I meant no harm or hurt to you and I doesn’t blame you for saying me but I aint wrong too dear.Hope I can have your understanding.
And dear,I got to admit that if I were to compare now and last time.I'm much more happier with you now cos now it's when I could feel you reallie love & care about me.I do complain to my butch simpanan and my chimui about you previously cos I felt I was abandoned and not priotirize at all.I felt love was only coming from my side and for you,you just wanted a relationship.I was still hanging on to this relationship and hoping somehow you'll realise one day about my importance but it didn’t happened.My wish didn’t came true and again you walk away from me by saying you need space and freedom,you couldn’t breath at all.At that moment,I gave up eventhough I didn’t want to.I wanna love you but I cant if you doesn’t love me too.So I followed your decision and was making my way out of your life till you came back and approach me.I knew I still love you but I was in doubt that whether this time you reallie want me?
I'm glad that I made da right choice cos now,I feel you're here with me.I feel my importance to you and most importantly I see myself in your heart with no one else in there anymore.It's more like 'us' now.For da past few months,I have been reallie reallie happie and I even wrote it in my hand phone that I'm reallie happie now & I hope it's not a dream but a reality.Thank you dear~
We may not be celebrating this day together but I'm sure our hearts are close to each other.Happy annniversary dear,I'm reallie happie with you*Lotsa hugs & kisses*
*Haha what a day we had*
Today is our 17th month anniversary and as usual,I would ask whether could we be meeting up tonight for dinner,at first she say ok but let her check her class timetable den when she have checked it's 10am-5.30pm,she say she cant,can we meet up on other days.I was upset and disappointed,thinking that it's another time we cant celebrate this day again.I know it's impossible to celebrate every anniversaries together but I do hope once or twice we can ma or let's just not say da word 'celebration',how about just meeting up for lunch/dinner or watever?It also depends on time and our availability as well =) Honestly,I told her my upset and probably she was very tired and stress with her revision,she was pretty mad about it and then came da phrase "You want me to fail again?" and I interpret as "I failed you?"
I was very mad at tat moment seeing that phrase cos I felt that I gave her da support she needed.I was really sad at that moment,thinking she blame her failure on me,cried non stop & thinking how could she be so cruel to me.Then we gone through da sms conversation to realise at de end that,all she meant was another thing and I say break up bcos I tot she blamed me!*Ish Ish*Pretty stupid right?
I know after this,she may still feel da hurt n thinking how could I simply just say break up over such small issues.What I wanna you to understand is I doesn’t mind if you comment or critize me on my own attitude,behaviour and others but I definitely can't take it when it's something I feel I did da best for you.I do hear and accept all da things you said to me.It would be reallie sad if someone doesn’t appreciate da good things you have tried to do.That's why da words came out from me,I meant no harm or hurt to you and I doesn’t blame you for saying me but I aint wrong too dear.Hope I can have your understanding.
And dear,I got to admit that if I were to compare now and last time.I'm much more happier with you now cos now it's when I could feel you reallie love & care about me.I do complain to my butch simpanan and my chimui about you previously cos I felt I was abandoned and not priotirize at all.I felt love was only coming from my side and for you,you just wanted a relationship.I was still hanging on to this relationship and hoping somehow you'll realise one day about my importance but it didn’t happened.My wish didn’t came true and again you walk away from me by saying you need space and freedom,you couldn’t breath at all.At that moment,I gave up eventhough I didn’t want to.I wanna love you but I cant if you doesn’t love me too.So I followed your decision and was making my way out of your life till you came back and approach me.I knew I still love you but I was in doubt that whether this time you reallie want me?
I'm glad that I made da right choice cos now,I feel you're here with me.I feel my importance to you and most importantly I see myself in your heart with no one else in there anymore.It's more like 'us' now.For da past few months,I have been reallie reallie happie and I even wrote it in my hand phone that I'm reallie happie now & I hope it's not a dream but a reality.Thank you dear~
We may not be celebrating this day together but I'm sure our hearts are close to each other.Happy annniversary dear,I'm reallie happie with you*Lotsa hugs & kisses*
*Haha what a day we had*
posted by Sam @ 1:30 PM
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