Pain & Alone

First of all,I wanna say sorry dear over the last post.I took it out cos it wasnt something that I wanted to post here,at that moment of writing it,I felt pain and frustrated.I felt so 'cham'/pityful that I was alone paining as no one was at home.I cried.I didnt blame you.I just frustrated over myself about da pain.I wanted to call you but I didnt wanna spoilt your mood neither do disturb you.I didnt meant to critize you.I knew you cared but physically & emotionally didnt allow me to be that understanding at that moment.I'm very sorrie dear.Yeah I know it sounds lame and late & you're upset about me but..but I dont know wat else to do but to say I'm sorrie =(

I know you were excited about da sony walkman mp3 player,you were thinking to buy or not to buy while I keep asking you not to and you wanted to know more about it whether what color would I prefer?is 1GB enough for me?why is it so expensive?and etc.I felt reallie happie & surprised when you first told me that you wanted to buy it for me cos*hehe*rarely you would say you wanna buy something for me*haha*and I'm sorrie that I didnt answered you in a good manner when you prompt me those questions.I was on my bed,rolling here and there struggling with my stupid period pain.I reallie couldnt focus myself about da mp3 dear.

Okie,I better stop here cos I'm getting a bit blur and what I reallie wanna say here is my sorrie to my dear about da previous post.I shall continue my work and hopefully get to ciao earlier.