Real Love Needs Trust
Have you ever encounter times when you're in between good and bad?What I'm trying to say is when you're in a situation where you feel upset over something,you do wanna act bad but ur conscious are telling you that you shouldnt.Em,da reason I'm saying this is because that I feel at times I am being over sensitive about how she and her 'fren',I'm not saying that they have something under their sleeves behind me or I doesnt trust her but I do feel a little uncomfortable as da gal is someone who hurt me,someone who is her close fren and emphasis is someone who is her ex.I guess it's not because that she's her ex that matters to me but it's because this gal gotten her once & hurt me before so I'm more aware of her actions and words.
I seriously doesnt mind both of them being close and keeping in touch as I do believe there are purely friends but I feel that no matter how angelic I can be,upsets and jealousy does happened and of cos I wouldnt wanna let this to interfere da relationship as it's going on very well now.
Why I'm writing this is because that few days ago I got to find out that they were still sleeping together,dont get me wrong,I mean sleeping on da same bed only.Naturally,I was a little upset about it and immediately with a rude voice,I told her to chase da gal out to da living room and sleep.At first,I was on my nerves saying all this and slowly,my heart got soften knowing how sad and tough life she is going through.This is when da good and bad of me hit me.In a way,it's right for me to be bad as she sleeping next to my dear. I mean could anyone of us take it that someone else is sleeping next to your love one?Honestly,I feel threaten but with a second thought,I told her it's okie.I dont feel that it should be a problem or a issue that we need to bring up in our relationship.I do pity her because she has a so call broken family giving her lack of love,supporting her family from tip to toe,going through hard life and running into unstable relationships.
Somehow,I made my mind that I shouldnt take her issue too personal.Both of them are friends and my dear make it clear to me that I shouldnt care about what da gal says or does as long my dear knows what she wants.Frankly I told her that all I need is a confirmation that when she tells me there's nothing,I do take her word and without pretending anything anymore, I told her that I do have a little shadow over da incident that happened.
I got englighten somehow that we gone through a few things before reaching here,for others they might have given up in between and we?We actually got back together and try harder again.It's absolutely not easy for us so we should be appreciating about each other and making our dreams come true.I'm reallie sorrie that I know at times I have been emotional and throwing my temper as well about da gal.I just wanted you to know that I want you more den anyone else.I doesnt care how and what she's treating you.All I care is how you feel about me.
*Smiling*This time,I could feel your love so much & I'm reallie touched to have you.Next,we need to work together in our own path to build future together*hehe*I'm longing for da day where I could see you in your graduation gown.A missed to UK shouldnt be an obstacle to you & it cant stop you from working harder again & again.Chance is by luck,you got it.Success is on your hands,you need to work on it.Good luck dear!
Yesterday we watched 'It's a wonderful life',it's da best CNY movie that I watched this year.A laughing comedy with some touching scenes.Dear,you shall treat me like how 'Ding Dong' treat his wife ah?*lol*
I seriously doesnt mind both of them being close and keeping in touch as I do believe there are purely friends but I feel that no matter how angelic I can be,upsets and jealousy does happened and of cos I wouldnt wanna let this to interfere da relationship as it's going on very well now.
Why I'm writing this is because that few days ago I got to find out that they were still sleeping together,dont get me wrong,I mean sleeping on da same bed only.Naturally,I was a little upset about it and immediately with a rude voice,I told her to chase da gal out to da living room and sleep.At first,I was on my nerves saying all this and slowly,my heart got soften knowing how sad and tough life she is going through.This is when da good and bad of me hit me.In a way,it's right for me to be bad as she sleeping next to my dear. I mean could anyone of us take it that someone else is sleeping next to your love one?Honestly,I feel threaten but with a second thought,I told her it's okie.I dont feel that it should be a problem or a issue that we need to bring up in our relationship.I do pity her because she has a so call broken family giving her lack of love,supporting her family from tip to toe,going through hard life and running into unstable relationships.
Somehow,I made my mind that I shouldnt take her issue too personal.Both of them are friends and my dear make it clear to me that I shouldnt care about what da gal says or does as long my dear knows what she wants.Frankly I told her that all I need is a confirmation that when she tells me there's nothing,I do take her word and without pretending anything anymore, I told her that I do have a little shadow over da incident that happened.
I got englighten somehow that we gone through a few things before reaching here,for others they might have given up in between and we?We actually got back together and try harder again.It's absolutely not easy for us so we should be appreciating about each other and making our dreams come true.I'm reallie sorrie that I know at times I have been emotional and throwing my temper as well about da gal.I just wanted you to know that I want you more den anyone else.I doesnt care how and what she's treating you.All I care is how you feel about me.
*Smiling*This time,I could feel your love so much & I'm reallie touched to have you.Next,we need to work together in our own path to build future together*hehe*I'm longing for da day where I could see you in your graduation gown.A missed to UK shouldnt be an obstacle to you & it cant stop you from working harder again & again.Chance is by luck,you got it.Success is on your hands,you need to work on it.Good luck dear!
Yesterday we watched 'It's a wonderful life',it's da best CNY movie that I watched this year.A laughing comedy with some touching scenes.Dear,you shall treat me like how 'Ding Dong' treat his wife ah?*lol*
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