Smiley Day =)

Thursday is a happie day to mark on with a smiley, da reason is I got my first Chanel bag and that’s not da major reason, da main reason is my dear got her first Montblanc bag!*hurray*Though it wasn’t da LV bag that she desperately wants it but yet I’m happie to see her smiling face.

My foolish dear been a little upset and distracted by da loss of her LV bag displayed in Milan Station.It was there for a day and sold out da next day.Pretty bad right?She was so sad that da bag was just so close to her hands and there it goes,someone else is having it instead of her. Walking beside her at da moment, I could feel da heartache she was going through though she was pretenting to be tough and den for weeks,crazily she was looking around for da LV bag in other websites & asking people.Now you should know how much she like da bag.

After a while, she notice this Montblanc bag and she kept it in her wish list as well.Coincidently da bag was there in da boutique on our second visit.Kinda amazing that when we pop in to da boutique on our first visit, we were approached by a bad attitude sales person saying that they didn’t have da bag so we just walked off and another heart broken scenario.

So on Thursday, after getting my Chanel bag from da Scoop(my time to say Yes!Yes!Yesh!My first branded bag..I mean first line branded bag in my whole entire life!!!Da only bag that is ‘branded’ that I’m having is Guess and now I’m having a Chanel*muacks muacks*),we went to check da authenticity of my bag and den to da Montblanc boutique,there it was da bag she was interested.

How do you know whether a person likes da bag or not?Let me tell you da symptoms are she will look at da bag from every angle that she can, she will put on da bag and asking you whether does she look great with it and then start looking into her eyes!

*Haha*Anyway, I’m reallie happie to know that she’s happie with da bag cos I cant bear to see her disappointment face.Dear,I reallie hope that though you haven’t gotten your LV bag but u’re as happie as I am with your new bag =)

And as a new motivation for your exams, we have a deal on getting four passes of your exams, you’ll be rewarded with da LV bag. No lies and no delays, so try your best ya!

I may not know how difficult you’re going through now or da fears you’re facing and I hope you could realize that your baby, me has been always here with you. Honestly, I admit that I did doubt your efforts previously during your exams but now,I realized da changed in you. You learned how to handle yourself and time well & dear, you make me feel so proud of you this time. I didn’t tell you this cos I doesn’t wanna you to fly to cloud nine too fast and starting to neglect your control.Dear,you’re doing great this time and you have my fullest confidence in you.

To those who look down on you,open you eyes bigger this time cos you’ll be impressed by my dear’s results!*hehe*I doesn’t wanna frustrate you by saying motivations words everyday but I hope you know how supportive am I to you.Whenever you feel da fear,always remember you’re not alone,I’m here with you.

Gonna take a bath now and off to bed for work tomorrow.

Last but not da least, dear I love you and hope you love me more more and more*lol*

Beijing Trip Updates

Good afternoon bloggie!I'm so hungry but I only left with few ringgit Malaysia with me and da rest is ren min bi(China dollar),so how could I grab things to eat?I sounded so pityful,don't I?*haha*Anyway,I'm glad I woke up feeling much better this morning,da headache and fever is gone,just my shoulders and neck are still in deep pain.Overall health condition is good =) I guess due to da weather changes den headache comes,fever comes and my skin allergy too!Tends to get very ithcy during at night and my god,if you look at my thighs,you would be thinking who da heck abused me,there's blue and black patches everywhere,so better dont see it,it's not pretty!

Oh yeah*hehe*before I get carried away,I'm suppose to update about my Beijing trip right?Here I start,once upon a time*slap*My first time sitting on da plane for more den 6 hours and believe me,no matter how good is da airline you're sitting,with such long hours of flight,it kills your back,your shoulder,your neck,your butt and your legs but probably it's a good experience too so that da next time if I'm travelling any further,I know da consequences already.Any how,remember the rule that for long flights,you must get a good airline to sit on.You pay da price for da service and da seat =)

What about Beijing?Well da temperature was between 18-19 degrees,so it's da breezy kind of weather,it's like in Genting somehow,da city looks clean and crowded,there's 13 million of population compared to Kuala Lumpur with 2 million of population so it's not surprised to see lots of cars and get stuck in massive jam during da peak hours.Great scenery of trees and flowers,awesome historical places and I get to see da different culture of Chinese people there.Da China history really captivates my heart to listen more,knowing da good and evil of every dynasty and I salute to them who build de Great Wall of China!!Looking at da huge and long wall,it's hard to believe how it was build with just bare hands of da citizens?As a shopacholic,I was looking forward to da Yasui Market for shopping but disappoinment in da end,there wasnt anything much to fancy about and only get to buy some souvenirs back.Aw,so sad..However,I got a Adidas jacket for my dear!Though it's a fake one but it looks good,hope you reallie like it =P

Da food there sucks,it's either salty,oily or tasteless.Probably different culture has different kind of favourtism but it's definitely not in my menu*lol*Thumbs up for the acrobatic show and mongolian show we had.Beautiful costumes and cool choreography*bravo*

Cut it short,da trip was fantastic but a little tiring as it includes a lot of sightseeing,glad that I have been to most of da historical places in China especially one of the seven wonders in da world,had my fun time with my colleagues and my bosses so do look forward for da next trip.

Just two months more,Bangkok I'm coming~~

Motto of da day: "Play Hard & Enjoy Your Life"

P/S: Happie 18 month Anniversay Dear,another remarkable day for us!Love you muchie muchie..

Back From Beijing*Hurray!!*

Bloggie!!!Finally I'm back to home sweet home from Beijing,no where is better den home!I'm extremely tired and exhausted from da trip but it's an awesome trip as well.Da breezy weather,beautiful scenery and historical places makes this an amazing trip to go.Whole day body aching and feeling feverish here,so wanna go take some rest now.Shall update you more later about my trip.

*(@-@)sick panda*

Greetings From Beijing

Bloggie bloggie!!I'm writing this from Beijing!!Cool uh?Just moved into a new hotel with computer and internet access,excitedly wanted to chat with my dear but too bad she's out for dinner.Wondering that gal got miss me or not these days?Em..da possibility should be low*haha*cos she should be busy with her studies or just simply because she doesnt?

Anyway,till then,gonna bath and sleep already,tomorrow is another long day to go but it's gonna be a shopping day!So prepare money and go!!!=P

Unneccessary Troubles & Worries

Aloha bloggie,as usual this morning I woke up,bathed,ate my breakfast with my cup of coffee and preparing myself to work.I was exhausted and restless because of da yesterday gastric pain,few hours of pain reallie troubled me.Upon reaching the train station to wait for my company bus,unfortunately,da last bus have left,was considering whether to go back and rest or just continue to work.My first decision was to continue to work but when I felt my tummy feeling more and more discomfort,I decided to go back.

Surprisingly,at da moment,my dear called me.Yeah,finally she called me,I guess she felt asleep yesterday soon after my second call to her and she didnt managed to pick up my calls after that due to her exhaustion as well(her headache).Hope she's feeling better right now.On da way back to home,I gave her a call and I commented that I wanted to go over her place to rest,da first time I said,there was no reply,second time I said,she say up to you in a reluctant way then next,she texted me saying that she couldnt study when I'm around and we couldnt be meeting up everyday,she need time for her study and hope that I really do understand.Emotionally sad but logically I knew I had to be more rational about this.My brains says that what she say is true,my heart says I just need a bit of her time.I hate myself for being this contradicting,can someone just stab me in my heart?*haha*

Sometimes I dont get it you know?She would say that I'm taking much of her time and practically,these few weeks,we only meet up for meals or meet up while she pick me & driving me back home?I guess it's not these that I'm consuming her time but da attention & care that I want which is troubling her.She did mentioned that she felt pressured from me.What sort of pressure?Undescribeable I guess.In my point of view,she's pressured cos she felt controlled and possesive?I heard from her that whenever she goes somewhere,she's worried that I may not like it.Undeniable I do and things started as it's getting nearer to her exams.Indirectly I was more worried then her.Many times,she tells me,how tension and stress she felt,time wasnt enough and she was rather slow in her revision.

To cope with it,that's how we cut down our meet ups and outings,da most is only few hours of seeing each other.Whenever she tells me she's out with her gang of friends,I knew that it's not gonna be a few hours thingy but a whole day outing.Yes,I do complained about this before that why there's a time and limitation difference between me and her friends but with da second thought,I shouldnt be selfishly comparing.It's not like she's neglecting me or pushing me aside right?But da main point isnt this dear,I respect your time with your friends and I aint like last time where I want 100% of your time.I'm rather more worried that you,if you get what I mean.Anyway,I shouldnt be over worrying about this and let you handle it yourself.Why should I create unneccessary troubles and pressures?Stupidly me,alright Sam has make up her mind to stop being a freak fella worrying about this and that,just let everything flow by it's way*thumbs up*Not everything is in my control.

These two days,we are just like da weather,sometimes sunny,sometimes rainy and luckily da rain do stops when da time comes.I got to admit I aint good with da weather forecast and da weather changing.I'm bad with it and I tends to get more emotional den ever before.However,my consciousness will comes later after that*phew*I guess I need to stay few feets away from her now,stop making calls and texting her too often,talk lesser and hear more,people just pray luck for me to do this.

It aint who's fault or who to blame,is for us to be understandable.Two hands to make a clap.

Continuing about my gastric,I just got back from da clinic,doctor confirmed it's gastric and saying I got a windy tummy.No heavy meals,no hot and spicy,no tea nor coffee,no fruits and no vegetables.Em,da first time I'm hearing about no vegetables for gastric.Any idea about it?

Tomorrow night I'll be flying over to Beijing and it's a good thing for me and her,sometime to cool down ourselves over da issue lately.Wishing myself a good trip to enjoy though it's a 5 days 3 nights(means 2 days on da plane!!*fainting*)and hope my dear's 'weather' will be much sunnier and clearer blue clouds & skies above ya.

p/s:take care dear,though sometimes I very ngam cham,ma fan,lor sor and lui yan but I reallie love you de & wishing you love me too =P

Where Are You Now?

Woke up in da middle of da nite,having gastric pain,calling and messaging her but no response no reply from her.

Could only stay up,hugging my panda and cry alone.Pain pain~

Wanna sleep but da pain kept me awake,so just wanna drop a message here,where's she?I need her very much.

Dear =~(

Sick & Sweet & PASS!!

Hey bloggie,I have been sick since Friday.Started with sorethroat den da next day down with fever,flu and headache.Luckily,damsel in distress,my hero dear came and rescue me,bringing me to see da doctor.I was kinda worried of going to doctor cos 2 years back,I had da "tonsilitis" problem which is also known as "white spots" in chinese.Back from the clinic,I was being very good,ate my mum's cooked porridge and medicine,quickly I jump onto my bed for a sleep because i was tempted by my dear to bring me to Cheras for da pumpkin soup base steamboat and to overnite at her place.I cross my fingers hard to get well soon else I'll lose this chance =(

Anyway,with da doctor's medicine,my headache was gone and left with minor flu & sorethroat plus da on off fever*yeah yeah*I was able to go out with my dear to Cheras for da steamboat,I'll give 9 out of 10 for da steamboat as I was having minor flu so da soup was rather blend but it's still very delicious =D~~.Da pork ball and pork slices was two thumbs good!I never had such yummy food before!!Raining day with steamboat and back home,hugging & sleeping with my dear beside.All seems so perfect =) I love da way she hug me in her arms so much*muacks*

Da sor lou skipped her class to drive me back home,worried that I'm sick & taking bus back home alone*aww so sweet,isn't?*

Thanks dear for your bringing to da clinic,to da steamboat,to ur home and back my home!Love you*wink*

I have been sleeping almost da whole day yesterday and was kinda blur to work today.My flu is getting worse and my sorethroat comes & goes at times.However,I'm still fine with a little feverish here*Dont tell my dear about this,doesnt want her to worry about me,want her to focus in her revision*While I was eating my swiss roll during my lunch break,a friend of my dear MSN me,asking me how's her prepation for her exams?I answered "She's preparing for it".Jokingly,he said "Ask her to study other course" and I defended saying "She's given da last chance,why not let her try again especially when she still wants to?".I remembered clearly yesterday lunch,my dear said she nearly wanted to give up but something came up into her mind & she knew she wanted to succeed in law so much.Her friend continue to asked "So what are the chances do you think she'll pass?",I answered "Now,it's da crucial time for her,the chances for her to pass lies on herself & it's for her to choose".Without telling him more about this,I'm here to support and to make you believe in me that you can make it.I see your efforts coming and I hope to see more.

I have declared a "no outing" week for us cos I wanna see you pass with flying colors in your exam =)

Again and again,I dont wish to see your grumpy and stress look ya,take good care of ur health,it's very important now and only think of da word "PASS"

May God bless my dear in her health,wealth,luck and studies!

Mind or Care?

When we started together,I knew you mind about my past,not about me and my ex-girlfriends but is me with da only one ex-boyfriend.I knew da thing that bothers you da most is you never thought I would be cling on with a guy and you couldn’t accept my relationship with him no matter how much I complained to you about him.I always tend to ignore about questions or telling you about me and him because I know you MIND and it bothers me.

We went through few times about this when I knew you mind and I would talk to you to comfort you that it's da past,please accept me of who I am.After going through several times,I thought things were getting better and I felt happie being witth your love & care,I seriously thought our love have change da way you think about my past.I thought that you accepted da fact that it's da past but from yesterday night,I realised I was wrong.

Happily together we hang out da whole day which we have not been doing since you started your revision,walking & driving from here and there,we sat down at a café to have our dinner and out of no where,da past issue arise.From da way and da tone you speak,I knew it very well that from da start till now,you still mind so much about my past,I wanted to cry so much at da moment but I didn’t.You may pretend nothing but I can sense it dear.I can.

Heart pain was felt within me as I was thinking,when we first started together,she mind about it,now after almost 18 months together,she still mind.Da question that I reallie wanted to ask but I don’t dare is "You MIND or you CARE?".

You mind cos I had a relationship with a guy which shows I'm aint as les as you though,I supported da guy & family financially and not leaving him earlier?

Or

You care that I suffered so much from da relationship & I was like being used and you felt da pain?

I doesn’t and don’t dare to make any assumption of my question at all cos I'm afraid to know da truth that you mind.

After the conversation at da café,I went back home,bathed and started crying till I was fall asleep.I knew you didn’t bothered nor care how much I cried or how sad I was.Your head was filled up of imagination about me and him,your anger was there and there's nothing you can do.

Did I do anything wrong?I just bump with da wrong guy,making wrong decisions and doing stupid things.I was all alone and I didn’t seek any sympathy from any one of you.I regretted so much and is there anything I can do?

Da phrase of " If you reallie love da person den accept who she/he is",how true is this?

Maybe you didn’t do it intentionally but your words & actions hurt me.Honestly,I cant changed you,I cant ask you to accept everything of me.Maybe I'm selfish or too self-centered.There's no right or wrong about this,it's all about how we wanna accept things as it is.

Past,
Present,
And da future,
Where do you see yourself in?
=)

If..

To My Dear,

*Me,Ting and You in Aquaria*

*Me and Scissors*

If you wake up in da middle of da nite or probably studying halfway and feeling stress,coincidently you came online and reading this post,just wanna tell you that you have us(all in da pictures)giving you da strength that you need,da fullest support that we have and da warmest care you'll have!So dont give up no matter how hard is it cos I'm sure you wouldnt wanna break any of your sweetie's heart right?*Hugs*

I remembered someone tell me that she wanna be a great lawyer and dear,may your dream come true!!*pray hard*

Love,
Bao bei =P

It's April =)

Hey bloggie,this month is da 9th month working in HP,time reallie flies from Monday to Friday den weekends and back to work again.These days been thinking about myself related to my career.I'm wondering whether for da next few year where will I be?Who will I be?And what can I be?I'm hoping for career advancement at da same time I need to remind myself that don’t hope too much cos many people in da working field struggled for da first few years only to able to get a little advancement in their job.I aint fussy or choosy about my job,I like my job very much because of da flexibility and also da people here.That's why I feel blessed about this cos I always hear people complaining about their job like company politics,underpay,overwork,boss being unfair and many more but for me da only thing I'll complain is I wanna hit my quota,where's sales?and stress.I guess comparing to others,my complain is nothing*haha*

A collegue just left da company last week,somehow he got fired by da company(I think)because he left suddenly with no notification.Just two hours before he went off,he came to every table asking for our MSN and he say he has send out his resume & waiting for interviews.It's pretty sad though to see him walk away like that.He joined the company later then I am and now da one first to leave is him.Though I'm not very close to him but as I see him.I do feel a little bit freak out about myself.I told this to my dear and my mum*haha*both of their response are da same which goes like this "So is your manager gonna renew you?" "Did he mention anything about your contract".Calmly,I told them not to worrie so much though inside I am WORRY!!!

It is a normal reaction to be worry cos I'm just a contract staff with da term start date and end date.So,I'm praying that my boss do see my work results,from a zero knowledge person about printers,doing sales,making planning about marketing and doing everything in business terms,now I can simply tell you what's good about da printers,how to talk to customers about sales,how to plan and market products by knowing what customers wants and I'm getting better with business terms nowadays.Working 9 months here by achieving my every quaterly quota,let's hope that my boss sees this and wants to renew me okie?

While writing this,I got a call from a job agency offering me a IT helpdesk job with a better salary*hmm*interesting..but IT?*haha*Frankly speaking,I'm not keen with IT now as my experiences is purely in sales and marketing,if I were to u-turn back to IT,I'll need to start all over again from da bottom though currently,I'm still at da bottom but I guess to climb up from here would be much easier.Again,I pray that they'll renew da contract with me or make me as their permanent staff please!*lol*

Yesterday was da first time my dear pick me up from home and drove me to work!*haha*I know it's not something very surprising or amazing but it does mean something for me cos she didn’t done it before =P.A good experiece of making her wake so earlie in da morning,got a little bit stuck with da jam and driving me to work =).I was so afraid that she couldn’t wake up,as you know waking her up aint a easy task!*don’t SM me!!*

We had a tele-conversation last night before she went to sleep,she sounded stress and frustrated & I guess it's because of her studies.She felt not organized about herself cos it seems like she's running out of time and she has plenty of things to do.When she told me I was part of her frustrations because she's worried I would request for more time from her to spend with me or complaining that she doesn’t accompany me or throwing my temper/showing black faces to her that she doesn’t care about me,in a way I feel glad and 'so-so'.I feel glad cos it show that she does care about how I feel which I realie appreciate!I'm not complaining or what,compared to last time 'her',she would just focus in her studies without bothering much about how I feel or may she does bother but she didn’t say it out?(I wonder).

Thanks dear for your consideration,I'm reallie glad that you do care about my feeling and I wanna point this out(maybe you do realise about this)that I have changed from a very emotional person,I tend to be more realistic or logical person.Whenever I wanna throw temper or start being emotional,I would keep myself away from others,cool myself and ask myself what's da problem before going after you.Last time,I would just keep and keep and wait for da alarm to call and explode myself,hurting da ones around me which is STUPID.Previously,I would hope you could spend 24 hours 7 days a week with me but with a second thought now,it's not neccesary.We would prefer a flexibility with freedom in our relationship where you have your own time & I have mine plus of cos time for us to hang out together and pak tor.We're still young to stay together and face each other da whole day & probably losing topics to talk.Since we are looking and aiming for a long term relationship,we should enjoy our own time first while preparing ourselves for da rest of da years.My god I'm just 24 years old and you're 23 years old*haha*We should have time for ourselves,family and friends.

Back to my changes,another good thing is I'm adapting well to your study lifestyle and I will be da understanding one,so please lesser down your frustrations about me okie?You have a lot of burden on your shoulder and I doesn’t intend to be one.I wanna be part of your shoulder to carry & lesser down them.When I got a problem or feeling upset or miss you or wanna see you,I could message you anytime right?Den when you have da time,you can either message or call me back*muacks*If you wanna see me,you can look for me anytime too cos I would wanna see you whenever I can*hugs*Aww..dear I miss you so much now..

Dear,do your best in your revision and dun give up.No matter what others tell you to demotivate or fail you,always remind yourself that you're doing this for yourself,not for them and it's for ME too!!!*wave da flag written "Lord Jas!"*God,bless us with luck and health!!!Love you dear.