It's April =)

Hey bloggie,this month is da 9th month working in HP,time reallie flies from Monday to Friday den weekends and back to work again.These days been thinking about myself related to my career.I'm wondering whether for da next few year where will I be?Who will I be?And what can I be?I'm hoping for career advancement at da same time I need to remind myself that don’t hope too much cos many people in da working field struggled for da first few years only to able to get a little advancement in their job.I aint fussy or choosy about my job,I like my job very much because of da flexibility and also da people here.That's why I feel blessed about this cos I always hear people complaining about their job like company politics,underpay,overwork,boss being unfair and many more but for me da only thing I'll complain is I wanna hit my quota,where's sales?and stress.I guess comparing to others,my complain is nothing*haha*

A collegue just left da company last week,somehow he got fired by da company(I think)because he left suddenly with no notification.Just two hours before he went off,he came to every table asking for our MSN and he say he has send out his resume & waiting for interviews.It's pretty sad though to see him walk away like that.He joined the company later then I am and now da one first to leave is him.Though I'm not very close to him but as I see him.I do feel a little bit freak out about myself.I told this to my dear and my mum*haha*both of their response are da same which goes like this "So is your manager gonna renew you?" "Did he mention anything about your contract".Calmly,I told them not to worrie so much though inside I am WORRY!!!

It is a normal reaction to be worry cos I'm just a contract staff with da term start date and end date.So,I'm praying that my boss do see my work results,from a zero knowledge person about printers,doing sales,making planning about marketing and doing everything in business terms,now I can simply tell you what's good about da printers,how to talk to customers about sales,how to plan and market products by knowing what customers wants and I'm getting better with business terms nowadays.Working 9 months here by achieving my every quaterly quota,let's hope that my boss sees this and wants to renew me okie?

While writing this,I got a call from a job agency offering me a IT helpdesk job with a better salary*hmm*interesting..but IT?*haha*Frankly speaking,I'm not keen with IT now as my experiences is purely in sales and marketing,if I were to u-turn back to IT,I'll need to start all over again from da bottom though currently,I'm still at da bottom but I guess to climb up from here would be much easier.Again,I pray that they'll renew da contract with me or make me as their permanent staff please!*lol*

Yesterday was da first time my dear pick me up from home and drove me to work!*haha*I know it's not something very surprising or amazing but it does mean something for me cos she didn’t done it before =P.A good experiece of making her wake so earlie in da morning,got a little bit stuck with da jam and driving me to work =).I was so afraid that she couldn’t wake up,as you know waking her up aint a easy task!*don’t SM me!!*

We had a tele-conversation last night before she went to sleep,she sounded stress and frustrated & I guess it's because of her studies.She felt not organized about herself cos it seems like she's running out of time and she has plenty of things to do.When she told me I was part of her frustrations because she's worried I would request for more time from her to spend with me or complaining that she doesn’t accompany me or throwing my temper/showing black faces to her that she doesn’t care about me,in a way I feel glad and 'so-so'.I feel glad cos it show that she does care about how I feel which I realie appreciate!I'm not complaining or what,compared to last time 'her',she would just focus in her studies without bothering much about how I feel or may she does bother but she didn’t say it out?(I wonder).

Thanks dear for your consideration,I'm reallie glad that you do care about my feeling and I wanna point this out(maybe you do realise about this)that I have changed from a very emotional person,I tend to be more realistic or logical person.Whenever I wanna throw temper or start being emotional,I would keep myself away from others,cool myself and ask myself what's da problem before going after you.Last time,I would just keep and keep and wait for da alarm to call and explode myself,hurting da ones around me which is STUPID.Previously,I would hope you could spend 24 hours 7 days a week with me but with a second thought now,it's not neccesary.We would prefer a flexibility with freedom in our relationship where you have your own time & I have mine plus of cos time for us to hang out together and pak tor.We're still young to stay together and face each other da whole day & probably losing topics to talk.Since we are looking and aiming for a long term relationship,we should enjoy our own time first while preparing ourselves for da rest of da years.My god I'm just 24 years old and you're 23 years old*haha*We should have time for ourselves,family and friends.

Back to my changes,another good thing is I'm adapting well to your study lifestyle and I will be da understanding one,so please lesser down your frustrations about me okie?You have a lot of burden on your shoulder and I doesn’t intend to be one.I wanna be part of your shoulder to carry & lesser down them.When I got a problem or feeling upset or miss you or wanna see you,I could message you anytime right?Den when you have da time,you can either message or call me back*muacks*If you wanna see me,you can look for me anytime too cos I would wanna see you whenever I can*hugs*Aww..dear I miss you so much now..

Dear,do your best in your revision and dun give up.No matter what others tell you to demotivate or fail you,always remind yourself that you're doing this for yourself,not for them and it's for ME too!!!*wave da flag written "Lord Jas!"*God,bless us with luck and health!!!Love you dear.