Past and Future,Your Choice?
Heyo,there are many things I wanna write in here today so let me take a little bit of time to remember and sort out what I wanna write before I forgets =P
First of all,last Saturday,my dear gave me another surprise!Out of no where and suddenly,she gave me a bouquet of red roses*drooling*It wasnt something in my expected list and I'm reallie thrilled about this.It's not da flowers that I'm happie about,it's da thought she has that brightens me up and dear,before I forget you did mention when we passed by Tiffany & Co in KLCC that you said verbally you'll buy me a T & Co ring when we get married(Dont break ur promise ah,I'll sue you ka,gonna go read up watever law about verbal words/promises!*haha*).I got good memory(only remember things that I want to remember).
While that brightens me up but lately some things came in and darkens my dear's skies.Firstly,her friend studying in UK got an offer letter from BVC den another friend in UK was having his round trip in UK bought many branded stuffs like LV,Gucci and etc.Do you notice something in common about both of her friends?If you're a good observant then you could 'see' what I'm writing here.I cant change nor stop her stubborness about UK cos I understand da regret and missed that she felt.Basically,da message that I reallie wanna bring up to her head is dont compare yourself and others when you know it's gonna just upset you da whole day.
Yeah,it's partially true that you ended up today because of 'her' but again,since da decision has been make & carried out,why do you still wanna insist over da matter?You cant be bringing this till end of your life and burry it into your graveyard.I know how much impact you had.You were given a chance to go UK,you asked around,no support,you declined,you found out her betrayal,you failed your A levels,you retook your A levels den you went for your intermediate and you failed again.It sounds aweful isnt it?
Da only thing you could thought of is why did you make such decision?Why did she and others to say no to you?But dear,while you're thinking of why about da past,why cant you think of why about da future?Undeniable,da past is da past,there's still scratches and scars in your heart that make it a unforgettable bad memory.No matter how bad she felt,she just couldnt bring you back to da past already.What I'm trying to say here it maybe hard to let go of da past,but dont let this tieing up heart and making you feel hard,let yourself walk on the path that you want and not blaming her all da way.
Next is you realise that people around you especially your two best friends are moving ahead of you,so now grab da chance or opportunity you're given now and move!They maybe moving much faster den you but if you doesnt stop controlling your mind,you may never move to any where and I know that's not what you want.
Jas Cheng Su Ling wanna be a smart law student where friends and family will look upon,be a great lawyer showing others that she aint weak,a faithful daughther who can afford to buy a house for da family to fulfill your dreams and achieving da things and life you wanted all this while.You doesnt wanna be lazy,you wanna be successful,you doesnt wan people to control your life just because they think you are weak when you wanna prove them you're NOT!
I feel upset seeing you weak and I feel a little bit pissed off when your friends has da empowerment over you.So what they are older den you and working?Cant you voice out your comments and saying no to them at times?*argghh*boiling*Anyway,that's between you & your friends,I just feel that there shouldnt be any empowering thingy between friends.
You're not useless dear.I'm not saying this just because you're my partner.I honestly just feel that your stubborness and mind is da one spoiling you.Da reason I'm saying so is your past makes you feel useless and defendless,da only thing you blame for wat you have now is your past,you feel weak and stressed because you're afraid of failing again and I doesnt wanna you fall back to your past again.Let's talk about da future instead?
I may not be a good advisor,I know sometimes I sound offensive,as though I 'know-it-all'*hehe*I just wanan tell what I see and feel and whether it's right or wrong,just correct will do.Today,da question that I'm wondering is am I taking her time too much and distracting her?Maybe da one who needs control too is me!*haha*
By da way,I hope dear will get back herself for her revision track since her big moment is just weeks away,crucial time.I'm crossing my fingers and praying hard for her this time.Dear,I'll support you all da way yeah,just go!*huggies*
*Note:My dear is buying me a T & Co necklace!!!*
First of all,last Saturday,my dear gave me another surprise!Out of no where and suddenly,she gave me a bouquet of red roses*drooling*It wasnt something in my expected list and I'm reallie thrilled about this.It's not da flowers that I'm happie about,it's da thought she has that brightens me up and dear,before I forget you did mention when we passed by Tiffany & Co in KLCC that you said verbally you'll buy me a T & Co ring when we get married(Dont break ur promise ah,I'll sue you ka,gonna go read up watever law about verbal words/promises!*haha*).I got good memory(only remember things that I want to remember).
While that brightens me up but lately some things came in and darkens my dear's skies.Firstly,her friend studying in UK got an offer letter from BVC den another friend in UK was having his round trip in UK bought many branded stuffs like LV,Gucci and etc.Do you notice something in common about both of her friends?If you're a good observant then you could 'see' what I'm writing here.I cant change nor stop her stubborness about UK cos I understand da regret and missed that she felt.Basically,da message that I reallie wanna bring up to her head is dont compare yourself and others when you know it's gonna just upset you da whole day.
Yeah,it's partially true that you ended up today because of 'her' but again,since da decision has been make & carried out,why do you still wanna insist over da matter?You cant be bringing this till end of your life and burry it into your graveyard.I know how much impact you had.You were given a chance to go UK,you asked around,no support,you declined,you found out her betrayal,you failed your A levels,you retook your A levels den you went for your intermediate and you failed again.It sounds aweful isnt it?
Da only thing you could thought of is why did you make such decision?Why did she and others to say no to you?But dear,while you're thinking of why about da past,why cant you think of why about da future?Undeniable,da past is da past,there's still scratches and scars in your heart that make it a unforgettable bad memory.No matter how bad she felt,she just couldnt bring you back to da past already.What I'm trying to say here it maybe hard to let go of da past,but dont let this tieing up heart and making you feel hard,let yourself walk on the path that you want and not blaming her all da way.
Next is you realise that people around you especially your two best friends are moving ahead of you,so now grab da chance or opportunity you're given now and move!They maybe moving much faster den you but if you doesnt stop controlling your mind,you may never move to any where and I know that's not what you want.
Jas Cheng Su Ling wanna be a smart law student where friends and family will look upon,be a great lawyer showing others that she aint weak,a faithful daughther who can afford to buy a house for da family to fulfill your dreams and achieving da things and life you wanted all this while.You doesnt wanna be lazy,you wanna be successful,you doesnt wan people to control your life just because they think you are weak when you wanna prove them you're NOT!
I feel upset seeing you weak and I feel a little bit pissed off when your friends has da empowerment over you.So what they are older den you and working?Cant you voice out your comments and saying no to them at times?*argghh*boiling*Anyway,that's between you & your friends,I just feel that there shouldnt be any empowering thingy between friends.
You're not useless dear.I'm not saying this just because you're my partner.I honestly just feel that your stubborness and mind is da one spoiling you.Da reason I'm saying so is your past makes you feel useless and defendless,da only thing you blame for wat you have now is your past,you feel weak and stressed because you're afraid of failing again and I doesnt wanna you fall back to your past again.Let's talk about da future instead?
I may not be a good advisor,I know sometimes I sound offensive,as though I 'know-it-all'*hehe*I just wanan tell what I see and feel and whether it's right or wrong,just correct will do.Today,da question that I'm wondering is am I taking her time too much and distracting her?Maybe da one who needs control too is me!*haha*
By da way,I hope dear will get back herself for her revision track since her big moment is just weeks away,crucial time.I'm crossing my fingers and praying hard for her this time.Dear,I'll support you all da way yeah,just go!*huggies*
*Note:My dear is buying me a T & Co necklace!!!*
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