Moving Ahead >_<
Last Wednesday,there was a break out news from my boss that the asia pacific region is closing down the telesales team because they dont see a need and supposedly I was given a one month notice to go & thanks for having a great boss,he offered a marketing post which is kinda different from what I expected and thought.At first,I was in suspense den shock den dilemma.
Suspense that how could they suddenly just close down a team like that?With such a short notice and short period?After that da shock was another colleague and de other telesales colleague who came in before me get to stay in da team handling some small accounts.Well of cos this is a heart break trauma to me.All this while I thought my performance prove my ability & maturity in my work but in da end..*speechless*I was sad and thinking what's da best way out?Should I try da new position or should I just leave and find my way out here?
I didnt had da mind & soul da next day,so reluctantly to go to work so I stayed home by taking medical leave and digging all da pros & cons of what is happening.It was tough to go through this,however it's my first time.It was tough for me to tell my dear also(as it happened a day before her last paper n birthday?)but I knew I couldnt hide.I told her and she looked into my eyes,I saw worries and fears.I know I know you're worried because you care and your fears is mainly about us.I did try to convince myself not to think so much but I failed.I felt you were afraid of being together with someone who's future may not be as good as you thought.You may not be able to buy all da LV,Gucci,Honda City and etc already.You may not be able to have fine dining in those classy places anymore.I knew you dear that you didnt wanna live poorly and materially was important to you(my assumptions).With da new position,I am losing out my commissions and I may lost you too.
All this came out from all my frustrations.Sad and weak inside.You were there with me,giving me support and motivations yet da fear was there.Maybe because I always wanna give you da best,da everything that you want and protecting you.I'm just scared that I cant do so anymore.At this moment,how I wish I could lean on someone without worries.I was glad to realise how caring my colleagues were,they phoned,messaged and msn me about it.They encouraged me to take up da new challenge and say that da commission I'm losing is da experiences I'm gonna gain.My boss told me not to feel demotivated as he went through this before and with both sales and marketing experiences,a lot of company would wanna grab me.
So I made up my mind and my heart to take da new position with a different direction.Once again,I wanna prove my ability to everyone that Sam aint someone who can be easily crashed down and come to think of it,it wasnt as bad as I thought,I'm being promoted?*haha*Hope my dear sees da 'good' in me =)
Dear's exam is over,we had a great birthday celebration at Alex's place with good food and cake plus da burned wire-extension but deep inside her,I felt her unhappiness.She was down about her exams.Her referral was rather more difficult then she thought and she didnt want to go through this again.Sorry dear.I knew da upsets in you if I said correctly here,I didnt know how to confront you as I was being frust at da same time.What I reallie want to tell you is exams were difficult and it's OVER,we cant changed da fact but to wait for da results to come and be prepare =) I understand that it's natural to feel bad & fed up after trying to many times and if this time doesnt work out,let's drop it and work together.It may not be as bad as it seems right?And mayb there's a surprise in da end?Hope,there's always HOPE!!
Good luck to both of us*hugs*
Suspense that how could they suddenly just close down a team like that?With such a short notice and short period?After that da shock was another colleague and de other telesales colleague who came in before me get to stay in da team handling some small accounts.Well of cos this is a heart break trauma to me.All this while I thought my performance prove my ability & maturity in my work but in da end..*speechless*I was sad and thinking what's da best way out?Should I try da new position or should I just leave and find my way out here?
I didnt had da mind & soul da next day,so reluctantly to go to work so I stayed home by taking medical leave and digging all da pros & cons of what is happening.It was tough to go through this,however it's my first time.It was tough for me to tell my dear also(as it happened a day before her last paper n birthday?)but I knew I couldnt hide.I told her and she looked into my eyes,I saw worries and fears.I know I know you're worried because you care and your fears is mainly about us.I did try to convince myself not to think so much but I failed.I felt you were afraid of being together with someone who's future may not be as good as you thought.You may not be able to buy all da LV,Gucci,Honda City and etc already.You may not be able to have fine dining in those classy places anymore.I knew you dear that you didnt wanna live poorly and materially was important to you(my assumptions).With da new position,I am losing out my commissions and I may lost you too.
All this came out from all my frustrations.Sad and weak inside.You were there with me,giving me support and motivations yet da fear was there.Maybe because I always wanna give you da best,da everything that you want and protecting you.I'm just scared that I cant do so anymore.At this moment,how I wish I could lean on someone without worries.I was glad to realise how caring my colleagues were,they phoned,messaged and msn me about it.They encouraged me to take up da new challenge and say that da commission I'm losing is da experiences I'm gonna gain.My boss told me not to feel demotivated as he went through this before and with both sales and marketing experiences,a lot of company would wanna grab me.
So I made up my mind and my heart to take da new position with a different direction.Once again,I wanna prove my ability to everyone that Sam aint someone who can be easily crashed down and come to think of it,it wasnt as bad as I thought,I'm being promoted?*haha*Hope my dear sees da 'good' in me =)
Dear's exam is over,we had a great birthday celebration at Alex's place with good food and cake plus da burned wire-extension but deep inside her,I felt her unhappiness.She was down about her exams.Her referral was rather more difficult then she thought and she didnt want to go through this again.Sorry dear.I knew da upsets in you if I said correctly here,I didnt know how to confront you as I was being frust at da same time.What I reallie want to tell you is exams were difficult and it's OVER,we cant changed da fact but to wait for da results to come and be prepare =) I understand that it's natural to feel bad & fed up after trying to many times and if this time doesnt work out,let's drop it and work together.It may not be as bad as it seems right?And mayb there's a surprise in da end?Hope,there's always HOPE!!
Good luck to both of us*hugs*
posted by Sam @ 5:06 PM
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