Feeling Disconnected =(

Have you ever felt disconnected with da people and things around you?
Lately when I thought things were going on well as I'm getting a new job and car,a big change in my life.A while I felt disconnected with her.It's like something seems to be bothering us.Easily we just get mad about each other & then we start throwing over da tantrums.She pointed out da situation & it just lead to da problem is ME.It seems like I'm not listening to what she say,not following da way she wants,I'm easily throwing my anger on her,i'm always 'challenging' her words,I aint priortizing her and last but not da least,I have changed ever since I work,I aint no da last time me.

I wont deny what she says is true or not cos I'm sure certain parts she is right about me but as there gets more often lately.I just find myself in my own world living in my life.I feel so lost.Where am I now?Who am I?

God,are you here with me?I just need ya support..

Again & again she seem to have lost memory about da 21st on each calendar month.It's kinda upset where I mark da date with every smiley but most of da time it end it de other way.Da best way to comfort myself is 'is just another ordinary day',dont take it so hard den da lesser I feel.