Feeling Disconnected =(

Have you ever felt disconnected with da people and things around you?
Lately when I thought things were going on well as I'm getting a new job and car,a big change in my life.A while I felt disconnected with her.It's like something seems to be bothering us.Easily we just get mad about each other & then we start throwing over da tantrums.She pointed out da situation & it just lead to da problem is ME.It seems like I'm not listening to what she say,not following da way she wants,I'm easily throwing my anger on her,i'm always 'challenging' her words,I aint priortizing her and last but not da least,I have changed ever since I work,I aint no da last time me.

I wont deny what she says is true or not cos I'm sure certain parts she is right about me but as there gets more often lately.I just find myself in my own world living in my life.I feel so lost.Where am I now?Who am I?

God,are you here with me?I just need ya support..

Again & again she seem to have lost memory about da 21st on each calendar month.It's kinda upset where I mark da date with every smiley but most of da time it end it de other way.Da best way to comfort myself is 'is just another ordinary day',dont take it so hard den da lesser I feel.

Second Resolution of 2008

Last Thursday attended one of my company grand dinner.Last year we held it at Mandarin Oriental and this time it was in Shang-ri La,Kuala Lumpur.At first was thinking to grab my old dresses and just putting on some light make up & hairdo but since my gal colleagues proposed to have a makeup+hairdo package which sums up to RM100 only(cheap as in KL rate),so let's do it!

I'm always happie for company dinner cos we get to work half day officially den time to rush over to da saloon to get ourselves done.Surprisingly,I thought I look normal but from the reaction when people look at me,I knew I looked very different.Imagine even my colleagues couldnt recognize me when they first saw me!(Okie,dont know whether it's a good or a bad sign,however I take da good one of cos8haha*).Took a lot of pictures on da day since it's a different Sam so here's one that I took it myself*cheers!*Dont doubt,it's me =P

I guess this would be my last company dinner with HP.I went for my first interview of da year on Saturday and unexpectedly the managing director offered me da job package on da spot.He was like 'wait-no-more' and then I showed my interest & told him that I'll confirm da next week.After some thoughts,I decided to hand in my resignation letter & as a norm,my boss and colleagues were 'shock'.I knew that this decision was a BIG one.I felt undecided whether to leave my comfy zone(flexible environment,great colleagues & boss but with a dead salary & position) or to start with a fresh zone(totally diff environment,idealess about my new colleagues & boss but with a good package & position).So after all da mind battles,I decided to change & have a fresh start*Crossing my fingers*

My dear got her first interview on last Friday,it started well(though she was so anxious days before da interview and it went on smoothly.Oh yeah by da way,it was reallie a 'memorable' moment to shop for her first working clothes*haha*She didnt wanted to look too girly so we went for a stripe shirt with black pants and we had lots of hassle buying da shoes.No heels,no pumps and must be a wrap shoes but finally thanks to Bata,we found da right one.Da lady partner of da legal firm hired her on da day itself!Good pay as we compare to others and since it's her first job,good try =)

Well,it seems like I got my first resolution done!Bravo and congrats to both of us.

Now up coming next is my second resolution of da year: Getting a new car!

My new job do requires me to travel around so having a car is neccessary & finally.So am I getting a Honda City?Answer is nope.Disappointed?Well a little yes but after da realistic mind speaks and da financial calculation done,I was confirmed I wasnt ready to get my dream car yet.However,I think it's ok for me to start with a economical car and if I work perfectly fine for my new job,Honda City is still on track,so why bothers?I should be feeling lucky that I could afford a car all by myself.It's all efforts of my day*wink*

Next update would be my dear's first working day and Chinese New Year on day way*tung tung chiang*

First Resolution of 2008

Da new year has started and I have begin to strive for my first resolution of da year which is to get a new & better job.I was thinking along da whole week while in Alor Star whether should I be leaving HP?Undeniable it is a good company to work with,de environment,people and benefits,it's not surprise to see people who walk away came back again.

I knew my heart broke when I was told that my role has been closed and been offered to da marketing side,aint saying tat marketing is a bad issue but afterall I started with telesales,my hope was to be able to climb up from the bottom of da ladder to da peak but reality,I was thrown to any bottomline of another ladder.Nobody understands how sour I felt.Glad that people around me ask me try before saying no and I kept my promise.

After a month working,as expected,there's more paper work to do and time passes by very quickly.I guess it's not da paper work that's stressing me but my dislike sitting down da whole day with two notebooks and a pile of papers.Aint my style though,reallie aint.I would rather speak on phone whole day!*lol*And gosh when my customers call and telling me how much they miss me,aww..Den with salary not being revised(though my boss say he will from day one),I felt more pissed off and I made up my own leaving(and yeah a bit from what Master Wong said too,not happie with your job now?Change!*haha*).

Second update is dear is joining me into da working world!*muahaha*Yeah,it's pretty hard asking her to stop and work but I think we came to a mutual agreement that it's time to do so.It wasnt as bad as she thinks that it maybe kinda difficult for her to get a job because of not having da degree but reality is after her resume submission in jobstreet,there were already few calls for job interview!So you see,life isnt as grey as we thought.Let's cross fingers that she and I would have find our splendid job.

My first resolution of da year: Get a happie job!! =)